Not sure how many of you know me, I do more reading than typing..
To be honest, I only seem to post or reply on here when I am feeling low..
Seems a little unfair when I come here looking for support and I'm not giving any back..
I've only been on here for a couple of weeks, so hopefully, As I do better with my drinking, I'll have some inspiration to offer everyone else looking for input...( I suffer depression/anxiety that all but disappears with 3 days AF..)
Drinking excessively makes me feel depressed and hopeless and withdrawn and scared and isolated...But I still drink...
It's been 3 days AF and I am now on beer number three (so totally sober).. I know I will be quite drunk by the time I go to bed...I cant stop now...
I've been doing 3 days AF, think I can sort it all out myself without you all and then get drunk and log right back in the next day...Followed by 3 days AF, then getting drunk again....
Still, I am at least drinking less and very aware of when and how much I am now drinking, which is better than not remembering what I've done 3 mornings a week...
Ive been drinking way too much for a long time, I know it's not going to turn around overnight...But I HAVE started, which is the most importaint thing...
I'm also determined not to be too hard on myself...I've read posts by people who were once drinking 2 or 3 bottles of wine a night, hating themselves because they drank a bottle of wine after 3 weeks AF!
Realizing and doing something about your drinking problem is awesome!
Becoming obsessed about it and expecting unrealistic results is really quite detrimental...
I could feel like guilty all day tomorrow for getting drunk tonight or I could use it as a reminder and then congratulate myself for making a start and having 3 days AF before getting smashed again (which is a vast improvement from 3 weeks ago)
What do you think?
David :l
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