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[AAthlete]

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Rocky, sorry to hear that you had a bad night. That's alcohol for you - cunning, baffling and powerful! It waits around until it can find an opening then BAM!

Yesterday is in the past, so focus on today and focus on getting back on track. Best of luck to you, my friend...

[hart]

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(((Rocky))

Don't beat yourself u hon. You made a mistake. Do this instead...:alf: it's funner, you can't help but laugh if you catch yourself in the mirror, and you get exercise to boot. You are an inspiration still!

[Rocky]

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Thanks for all the great encouragement from all of you!!!

I am just mad as hell at myself. But I know its just a big pothole in the journey... and the journey will contimue!

[Guest]

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Rocky, at first we don't succeed, we try again. It's a new day, a new chance for change. You have helped me many a time, with your few words of powerful wisdom. You have my prayers.
Hugs
Mar

[42cat]

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Congrats on the 5 months. Last night was just a blip.. one of those human things that happen 'cause we're human!..... hope you don't let it get you down. Y'know, most journeys have ups and downs, wrong turns, backtracks, etc., that we learn from.

Be proud of how long you've come. Well done!

~Catt

[Mags]

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Brother Rock
Love yourself instead - it feels much better. Think of the bright side - it was only 1/2 a bottle, you didn't do anything stupid or hurt anyone while under the influence, and today you have even more resolve to fight the good fight. We all have blips - we must learn from them and let them make us stronger.
:h :l :h

[MDBiker]

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Rocky my friend, it sucks to do that after 5 months dry. Truthfully if you drink a half a quart every 5 months that is only twice a year. I think you can live through that. The problem is when the binge is over the mind is still in the drinking mode. You will have to take a determined stand as you have before and you can stop again. I know why you are upset with yourself. You could have not taken that first drink. It was a decision. You decided for whatever reason it was alright to drink it; or you wouldn’t have drank it. I know the feeling. I have done it over and over. The first time here I quit to the point of bingeing about every 3 months. I thought that was good enough and I would be much better than I was drinking every day. The problem is that after the 2nd or 3rd binge I didn’t stop so easy. Pretty soon I was back drinking as if I had never slowed down. Maybe I was even drinking more. As soon as I could I would go AF again, then over and over; except the days AF got shorter and shorter. I realized that I had never really quit drinking in my mind. Even though I was AF for long periods I still was addicted in my mind. Until I finally decided I was not going to drink ever, I was able to get past the bottle in the closet. Alcohol is not on my mind any more. I don’t drink. I have told everyone who will listen, and I have made it a point to tell people not to bring any alcohol to my house or my barbecue (or whatever if it is mine). I don’t want it around because it drawn in drunks who don’t need to be drinking it in the first place. If people care about me they will respect my feelings. If not I don’t have to be around them. That is my choice as well as the choice not to drink again. I know we are supposed to do this one day at a time, but I couldn’t get it out of my mind until I decided never again. It was like being on a diet and thinking about eating all day long. It drives me crazy and I don’t experience the freedom from not drinking I should. Brother, I don’t mean to be a ass here, I am just telling you as truthfully as I know how; what worked for me.

I wish you the best

bear

[Rocky]

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Thanks MD / no offense taken / truer words never spoken.

MDBiker;162215 wrote: Rocky my friend, it sucks to do that after 5 months dry. Truthfully if you drink a half a quart every 5 months that is only twice a year. I think you can live through that. The problem is when the binge is over the mind is still in the drinking mode. You will have to take a determined stand as you have before and you can stop again. I know why you are upset with yourself. You could have not taken that first drink. It was a decision. You decided for whatever reason it was alright to drink it; or you wouldn?t have drank it. I know the feeling. I have done it over and over. The first time here I quit to the point of bingeing about every 3 months. I thought that was good enough and I would be much better than I was drinking every day. The problem is that after the 2nd or 3rd binge I didn?t stop so easy. Pretty soon I was back drinking as if I had never slowed down. Maybe I was even drinking more. As soon as I could I would go AF again, then over and over; except the days AF got shorter and shorter. I realized that I had never really quit drinking in my mind. Even though I was AF for long periods I still was addicted in my mind. Until I finally decided I was not going to drink ever, I was able to get past the bottle in the closet. Alcohol is not on my mind any more. I don?t drink. I have told everyone who will listen, and I have made it a point to tell people not to bring any alcohol to my house or my barbecue (or whatever if it is mine). I don?t want it around because it drawn in drunks who don?t need to be drinking it in the first place. If people care about me they will respect my feelings. If not I don?t have to be around them. That is my choice as well as the choice not to drink again. I know we are supposed to do this one day at a time, but I couldn?t get it out of my mind until I decided never again. It was like being on a diet and thinking about eating all day long. It drives me crazy and I don?t experience the freedom from not drinking I should. Brother, I don?t mean to be a ass here, I am just telling you as truthfully as I know how; what worked for me.

I wish you the best

bear

[southernbelle47]

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Just having it in the house is a trigger for me.
Can you pitch it?

Huggs Nancy

[Rocky]

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southernbelle47;162220 wrote: Just having it in the house is a trigger for me.
Can you pitch it?

Huggs Nancy

No...Everyone in the house drinks daily. The in-laws families all come there to party. There is a nightly cocktail hour....I may need to run away....

[SKendall]

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Rocky, I'm sorry you feel bad. One night in five months shows a very impressive resolve on your part. Your resolve didn't happen last night. That's all.

That was yesterday. :l

[southernbelle47]

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I'm sorry Rocky.
It is so hard to be around people who are drinking and not drink yourself.
Fight it here every day also.
Just do as many af days as you can....for yourself and your health.Have you seen your doc yet?
Take care.
Nancy

[Rocky]

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southernbelle47;162234 wrote: I'm sorry Rocky.
It is so hard to be around people who are drinking and not drink yourself.
Fight it here every day also.
Just do as many af days as you can....for yourself and your health.Have you seen your doc yet?
Take care.
Nancy

Doc tomorrow...

[lushy]

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Rocky, I think you are great and you have done so well. I am sorry you are surrounded by it at home. That would be impossible for me to have gone as long as you have AF.

There is a lot of wisdom in MDbiker's post.

[Beaches]

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Rocky, one day in 5 months is a lot better than where you were before. I know how hard it is to get a grip on the drinking when it's in the house all the time that's how it is here. You can do this you have shown yourself that in the past and proven how much you want to be AF. We'll be here for you. Take care friend.