Things are starting to happen for me with getting help for my drinking problem.
I saw the drug and alcohol coundillor on Tuesday, he's a nice guy, an ex junkie so knows what addiction is all about, he's given me some homework to do, and best of all he validated some of the reasons why I got here, he's been there too.
Yesterday I saw the phyciatrist again, and on my first evaluation, as some may know, I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome...
She took alot of notes and confered with the other phycs and after our discussion yesterday, she said I've been diagnosed as having Chronic Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder manifesting as Borderline Personality Disorder, yay!
Basically means I was f****ked up as a kid and now my emotions aren't working normally, but I knew that....
I knew I had some issues..., and she said it's no wonder I drink, and if anything I've used it as a coping mechanism that has kept me alive, and I can see this, the times when I've wanted to hurt and kill myself, I've gone on a binge and wiped out the emotions and survived it, with a shocking hangover, but I survived.
Anyway, I'm referred to do a 42 week course through mental health callled DBT, Dialectical Behavoural Training, first started by Marsha Linehan ( google it if your interested, lot's of info about it) but it is pretty much a successful treatment, and I'm keen to start it in two weeks time, in the meantime I have cd's to listen to about 'mindfulness' and literature to read. she warned me that during the couse I will probably feel as if I'm losing my identity, Yay I thought, the one I have is pretty crappy, so I'm feeling good about it and can't wait to start.
Hope you all don't hold it against me due to my disorder, as I'm trying to beat this shit and reaching out for all the help I can get, as I know everyone who posts here is, no matter what stage they're at,
Here's hoping you all have open hearts,
Luv Jas xxx
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