Ive been reading the posts all week and following how you are all doing!!!!!
Does anyone try and put faces to the names I do......and dont worry they are all very nice faces.......
I would just like to tell you my progress so far......Im 28days AF.......and feel like myself again......Im generally happy for no reason in particular.....just happy to feel sober.....im more confident......I am single.....and when I usually went to bed after stopping drinking....I would feel scared and afraid......and listen for every sound in the house.....Now i go to bed I just flop relax and within seconds im in dreamland.........Also my communication with others is good......where as before I would hide away and not want to be bothered......now im a shoulder to cry on.......I like that being there for others.....Im alot more active and also watch what I eat.....My house is organised and clean.......my bills are paid......im not saying things are perfect because they are not.....its just I can see a big difference to when i drink and dont......and I like not drinking the buzz i get from not drinking is far greater than the one i get from drinking......this time I feel stronger...because a few days ago I was walking along the river to collect my son from school...and their is this very nice old fella that always rides his bike along the river with his dogs and his radio.....( he doesnt know im a problem drinker ).......he is well known to the community he always has his glass of cider on his bike and his bottles in his compartments.......( he obviously stops to drink his cider hehe)......anyway he offered me a drink and I said no thankyou not a good smell for the school hehe.....this old fella looks very well off he never looks drunk and he has many many friends. What im trying to say is I was offered alcohol and I said no thankyou there was no seed planted in my head after where as usually there would have been......I dont take no meds or supps.....its just the thought of not being in control that keeps me going........and coming on here reading and reading and reading thankyou all so much for being here!!!!!!
Luv Keepon:h
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