I want to apologise to everyone for my thread on Friday night 'Hello'.
No excuse, It was posted in a fit of feeling down about all the shit in my life, and in case you hadn't noticed I'd been drinking...
I've just reread it, and can see how it wouldn't inspire anyone to be supportive or compassionate towards me, especially as it was such a hypocritical post seeing as I've posted threads previously about inane things that haven't been involved directly with my my drinking problem, and I agree the lighthearted and fun posts are necessary to brighten us all up a bit, when our problem can be such a downer.
And I know I can go into 'victim' mode too, although I'm trying hard to get over that. And I also feel bad for others who have been feeling bad about their jokey posts as well, I tend to empathise with people who are really having a hard time, and have felt defensive on their behalf.
I am sorry for being so nasty and offensive to all that have reached out to me with kindness and support, you didn't deserve that.
And if there is anything I can say it is that I was stupid to drink again, after I had been doing pretty well, I went on a bender, and disappointed my daughter again the next day too, she could tell straight away that I'd been on it big time. I've hurt and disappointed everyone, I know.
I haven't had a drink since, and plan to go af again, and feel terrible for my outburst.
I was wrong, and I'm really sorry.
Love Jas xxx
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