Been Awhile

[Saint Jude]

Been Awhile

Hey Tracy! :welcome: Back! Say "hi" to those Colorado Mts for me!

[TracyA]

Been Awhile

Mac! Hi. How are they biting these days?

SK, St. Jude - good to see you.

I would be deceptive of me to say that I'm "doing well," just not doing a lot of damage.

Last Nov. or so I posted about a tx I was considering (someone called it the LSD therapy - lol). It never panned out, and I gather that the doctor is not doing well (injuries from a car accident).

Now I am seriously considering going to a tx center in Canada. I think I have problems beyond alcohol anyway, so just moderation - even just abstinence, would likely be of limited benefit. I would love to be like Roberta and pull off just using this - but I'm not pulling it off. The treatment is counseling intensive, cognitive therapy.

The center, blessedly, shuns the ideas of AA. I'm really pretty spooked about it anyway, minimum 30 days - maybe 60. It's definitely cheaper by US standards, but still expensive. I'll also likely be giving up my scholarship for college this year to attend since I won't make it back in time for class.

My daughter (who is 26) pointed out, "Mom, you can get scholarships next year. School will always be there." I don't know what I'll be doing for the rest of the year.

So ... yikes!

I'm going to tell my boss today. I think she'll be supportive, but as that job does not pay "make a living" wages (tiny nonprofit), it wouldn't bother me to lose it.

I find the nutrients and all helpful despite my failure to manage drinking (or not drinking). I'm not sure they will let me take them though.

Whether it is alcohol or other issues, I feel trapped enough that I have to do something.

I'll probably be leaving sometime next week.

[Rags]

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Hi Tracy,
What a huge step you're taking! Am I ever proud of you!
And your daughter... you are a very lucky person to have her and her support.
I feel sure that your attitude, your resolve, and your analytical approach will see you through whatever problems you have to overcome.... plus the wonderful support you're getting from your daughter.
Please keep in touch and let us know how well you fare in this adventure.
Wouldn't we all like to be able to "pull it off" like RJ did... but if we could, there wouldn't be this website. And I wouldn't have met you.
Take care.
May you be well, may you be happy.
rags

[TracyA]

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Thanks so much, Rags. I appreciate your support. I'm trying to round it up because this feels a little like jumping off a cliff ... I'm guessing. Never actually jumped off a cliff.

[Preciouspinot]

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Much respect and support for you as well. This is a huge scary step. (don't mean to scare you) You are very strong to do this.

[TracyA]

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Thanks, PP. Every time I see your avatar, I know I'm in for something good.