to all those that doubted me

[imatree]

to all those that doubted me

Hey Rachel... Do you really want to stay with your boyfriend?
It seems to me that if you let this relationship go you could then focus on your healing your addiction and your son. Can you set aside hurt feelings, the arguments, the crap, and accept this as an opportunity for you to get your priorities in order?

Ok, you have nowhere to go... do you know that sometimes the Universe provides things for us when we most need them - BUT we have to be ready to receive the gifts. If you hang on to a relationship that is hindering your ability to heal, you are not open to receive and the Universe cannot provide.

(As you know, I'm talking from personal experience...)
Sending you hugs and love...........

[magic]

to all those that doubted me

Rachel

I'm thinking about you, girl.

This may sound really odd but I can share my higher power with you for a bit.

She is with you now.

Just be open and aware to possibilities.

magic xx :heart:

[YoungAtHeart]

to all those that doubted me

Dear Rachel,

I hope you can see that there are a lot of people here who do believe in you. You are mistaken if you take the negative words of one or two people to heart.

If you want to stay with your boyfriend, I will say that sometimes it is just good to take a time-out from an argument and just let it be for a day or so. When everyone is worked up, issues usually don't get resolved.

I hope you are sleeping now and maybe talk when you wake up, or maybe even the next day. Also, Ima and Magic have a point. You have to take care of yourself. Sometimes when something bad happens it can open the door to something better.

Try to keep the faith, honey.

:l Rachel :l

Love,:h
Kathy

[Noella]

to all those that doubted me

I thought I posted this earlier, but evidently it didn't take - if it's a repost, I apologize!
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((tryingSoHard)) I haven't read all of your posts, but in my catching up tonight I did see this one - I am SO sorry your are in so much pain right now. I know you say you feel like nothing's going right, but I wanted to make sure you noticed that even in the middle of your pain, you took the time to support another member (just read the Marriage mess by psychmommy).

In my opinion, this is a GREAT sign... you may not feel you have strength for yourself, but you do - and enough that you can still give it out to other people!

I'm sending you big hugs, and hang in there - remember - things are always darkest before the dawn!

[Finkle]

to all those that doubted me

Finkle-winkle agrees with the universe does provide, expect the unexpected and this may be a blessing in disguise.

Chin up, it all works out in the wash...

No I did not just read a book of cliques

[lilaclover]

to all those that doubted me

I will be thinking and praying for you and your son Rachel. You are a very strong and thoughtful person and though I know things look bleak right now, they will start to look better soon ! Keep posting so we can keep sending hugs and good wishes.

[Accountable for Me]

to all those that doubted me

tryingsohard, you are amongst friends here. A couple of things I would like to say in hopes it brings you some perspective to some things you are experiencing at the moment.

:l Unfortunately when we read things like posts/emails etc we don't always get the right 'tone' associated with them. Some people may take something someone said the wrong way when it was written and meant something completely different. If someone takes something that is written here wrong and acts sensitively towards it and posts something defensive, just take it with a grain of salt. Not everything that we post is going to please everyone or come across the way it is meant to some. So don't worry about it. If someone has taken something you said the wrong way, they can simply PM you, or me, or whoever they have the issue with and ask what you meant by that - a quick explanation usually takes care it.

:l If alcohol is coming between you and your BF, your child, your life; it is imperative to try to seek out some support for help. I know all too well that alcohol destroys relationships, careers, lives in general. Have you seen a doctor? Checked into an out patient rehab program? I am not trying to be naive if you have and had posted it somewhere else. I think that maybe after the ordeal you have gone through today and you want to save your relationship, and give your child the life he (and not to mention YOU deserve), it might be worth checking into to. Most of us cannot just quit on our own. And if life seems unbearable at the moment, the first thing we know how to do is to drink it away. Unfortunately it is temporary and more than likely enhances our problems. I know you want to get a handle on this or you wouldn't be here. You may need the aid of a professional. Trust me, I have been in your shoes and I understand the chaos you are in.

:l I have destroyed 2 great relationships because of alcohol. If you are with someone who is losing tolerance with your drinking, and they don't have a drinking problem; they may just high-tail it out of there. It happened to me. I went through many things that led me to where I am today and that is alcohol free - finally and very happily. My daughter who is two was icing on the cake and was my real inspiration to get well.

Anyway, I wish you the best, and sorry for the novel. I tend to go on and on sometimes. I just want to encourage you to like yourself enough to start putting the pieces back together in your life. Much love

[chrysa]

to all those that doubted me

Rachel...Obviously most people here on these boards do not know how bad off you really are!!

Call some social agency to save your kid. Call some state/community help lin e--- to save your kid!!!! Find somewhere for your kid to go ...to your Mum's ..a friends..somewhere..while you committ yourself to some facility..

Your BF is a total loser!!!! Wake up!!! Take care of your kid &you!!!

[MDBiker]

to all those that doubted me

Amen chrysa

[Accountable for Me]

to all those that doubted me

Obviously I missed something here. If what Chrysa is saying, is how very bad your situation is, please take her advice.

[Saint Jude]

to all those that doubted me

Rachel, I PM'd you.

Which I believe OTHERS may want to consider doing in the future...
Some of the posts I'm reading here are a VERY fine line between JUDGEMENT & SUPPORT.
Not to point any fingers... but, come on, what do any of us REALLY KNOW about each other?
:h

[louise]

to all those that doubted me

Rachel, I am really sorry to hear you are in such despair when you were doing so much better. I am really frustrated for you that the earliest appointment they could get for you is the 26th when so many people wrote about how great your medical system was. I believe you are sincere about changing, I think you have had a very difficult life, I am sure from your posts that you are a caring and thoughtful person. Please remember Morrison and free will vs fate. Your boyfriend does not sound very supportive to me and you deserve someone great. If you can possibly find somewhere for your boy to stay while you get help, please do. I pray for an angel to watch over you.

[louise]

to all those that doubted me

St Jude we were posting at the same time. Rachel I hope if you receive any pms they are supportive. I think it is best the ones that might be the fine line between judgement and support should stay on the boards. Sometimes people disappear and we never know why. At least if things are on the boards we all know what is happening.

[louise]

to all those that doubted me

Rachel, I am really sorry to hear you are in such despair when you were doing so much better. I am really frustrated for you that the earliest appointment they could get for you is the 26th when so many people wrote about how great your medical system was. I believe you are sincere about changing, I think you have had a very difficult life, I am sure from your posts that you are a caring and thoughtful person. Please remember Morrison and free will vs fate. Your boyfriend does not sound very supportive to me and you deserve someone great. If you can possibly find somewhere for your boy to stay while you get help, please do. I pray for an angel to watch over you.

[Saint Jude]

to all those that doubted me

Good point Louise.
I debated if I should make a note about PM's or not @ all
As in ...
"if ya can't say something nice..."

Just my humble opinion...:h
:l