This will be nearlly 34days AF for me.......and Im feeling positive.....actually the thought if drinking alcohol...makes me cringe.....the taste the smell and the feeling dont appeal to me anymore.....dont know why it feels different this time...possibly because the last time I binged I hurt my family and I had horrible mental and physical withdrawals......it just dont seem worth picking up a drink to get a buzz......more hassle than its worth....although I have not been tested on the social side of drinking because I dont go out at all.....would I still stay AF???? who knows being around people who are drinking and on the same level of humour......would I feel miserable and left out would I convince myself to have a couple (which would turn out a disaster) because I carnt have just a couple I have to get drunk
And my other trigger is when I get annoyed or upset about things I instantly crave drink is this normal? In the past Ive got a drink got drunk etc etc etc Would I still be AF if i had been upset or pissed off in these 34 AF you see my point is im ok when things are going fine and Im plodding along by myself in life but its when it comes to family get togethers ( I carnt not go) Ive always been shy and used alcohol when I was younger for confidence......
Anyway just typing how I feel right now !!!!
Also Im 31 got an 8yrs old son and ive been single for 3 and half years and because im pretty new where i live I have no friends and I dont go out to let my hair down etc and Im getting a bit fed up of bein alone when my sister is on her fourth child and she is younger and my sister in law is also on here fourth child same age as me.......I think to myself am i just one of them women that will neva find anyone.......well actually I stop looking...because they say stop looking and he will come .......WHEN LOL.....you see drink has been my partner for a long time and now ive dumped the drink I want to find a nice companion......soz if I sound desperate lol I just want to share the nice things in life with someone.
Right am going to end this post before you slip off your chair asleep hehehehehe
Takew care Luv Keepon:h
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