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    Most of you know I've been out of work for quite some time and that i recently got a consulting job in Manhattan that started beginning of June. i thought that financially we would be ok because the job started just as my unemployment insurance was running out.

    Here's the problem, because I am freelancing, I am considered a vendor, and I am not going to be paid for 60 days from the day I submitted the invoice to the company, which won't be until end of August. Financially we are strapped and will be unable to pay our August bills without that money I was expecting. We tore through our cushion somehow. Money just seems to go.

    Anyway I reconciled with my dad and stepmom about 6 months ago after a 9 month estrangement, and i was the one who ended the estrangement even though they knew Sophie got diagnosed with autism while we were estranged and they still never reached out to me.

    They have been very helpful trying to get Sophie used to them so Tim and I can get a little freedom and also so I can find full time work (that hasn't exactly happened yet but we are all working on it). I asked my dad for a small loan that I would pay back at end of August when I got my check. He knows how horrible our situation has been since her diagnosis and that I have been out of work. He said he did not have the money which I know not to be true.

    They definitely have this very small amount of money. He has loaned my extremely irresponsible brother at the very least, 20K. He didn't even ask me how much I needed, he just said he didn't have it, that it was tied up, which I know couldn't be possible. They take too many vacations and are in no debt. He knew I would pay him back in less than 40 days, I have never asked this man for one penny. I told my twin brother about it, he is beyond livid that our father would not loan me this money, so my brother is going to loan it to me. I am really upset and confused about this and I asked my brother not to turn this into drama but I am very upset about this.

    Then yesterday my stepmom called here to try to get my hubby to drive my DAD to the impound, my dad's car had been towed because it was parked in a no standing area. They have an indoor garage spot for their car in an apt. building that they pay over 200 bucks a month for, yet he decided to park on the street because it was closer to his apt. It cost him 400 bucks to get the car out, but he has no money!! He is being one royal jerk. He has not called me all weekend which is unlike him, she has been calling trying to get me to come to dinner but I keep making stuff up. I just don't feel like seeing them right now and I am not even sure she knows I asked for money. I feel like she would want to help. I don't know what his problem is, I'm his only daughter and we actually have a relationship now and he is blowing it. He knows this money is the difference between my getting bills paid and not getting bills paid, this isn't about frivolity. Sorry just needed to vent.
    Sunny days, sweeping the, clouds away. On my way, to where the air is sweeeet!!! Can you tell me how to get, how to get to......LOL

    #2
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    i can understand your wanting to vent. sounds like some weird things going on.

    i'm guessing you have always been self-sufficient and that your asking for a small loan even for a short time might have been disconcerting for him. maybe that's why he is acting strangily.

    Also, that car towing thing is strange. i would wonder what is really going on with him, especially since it seems your step mother is reaching out still and maybe unaware. maybe something completely unrelated to you is gong on?
    Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life... And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

    Steve Jobs, Stanford Commencement Adress, 2005

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      #3
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      (((((((HC)))))))))

      I'm so sorry hon.:l I don't get along w/my father but I do my step-mother. Having said that I know with all those mixed feelings you have it must have been hard to even ASK for any money from him. I have an idea. If your brother can get money from your dad why don't you ask him to ask for money? Then have him keep whatever he is given in excess.

      R u getting disability for your child? Can u tell the company you are going to consult with that you need some upfront money? Do you have a church you go to? What about your husbands relatives?

      I'll try and do some more thinking. Can you call a crisis line in your city? They usually have numbers of various organizations that can help with payment of utilities, phone, etc.

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        #4
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        p.s. congratulations on the job.
        Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life... And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

        Steve Jobs, Stanford Commencement Adress, 2005

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          #5
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          I'm not sure what to say except I'm sorry you're in this situation. :l Feel free to keep venting if you like - I'll be on the boards for a while


          ~N

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            #6
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            I am sorry Happy. The whole thing makes no sense. Hope something gets worked out soon....:l
            I'm really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me

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              #7
              Disappointment and confusion

              When my bro was going through his divorce they gave him all sorts of money for lawyers so he could retain custody of his kids and his house. His ex-wife was a real looney. Then they moved IN with him for 4 1/2 years to help him with his kids and then spent countless more K's on his kids, bought the food, took the kids on trips, etc. If my daughter didn't have autism they'd be trying to take her to Disney World right now, and they would have paid for that whole thing, which would be A LOT more money than I am asking for right now. It's just so freaking odd. The way they dole out help is all ass-backward.

              I doubt they'd give my brother any more money- that well has run dry I think. He's on his own now. If he wasn't loaning me the money I'd have to take a cash advance on my credit card. I have other funds that are tied up and would take too long to get to, that's what frustrates me more, because I am so totally good for the money. I am not broke I am in a temporary jam. I should have said that earlier. That is why I am even more mad at him because I am a very reliable person and he knows I would pay him back on the exact day I said I would. Just bizarro.

              Yeah Beatle the car thing is totally weird - when I asked her why he would park there she was just like "well sometimes shit happens", she was defending his complete foolishness, maybe out of embarrassment, who knows. I have no idea what the hell is going on over there. I just wonder if she knows about the money at all. I could throw it out there and say my brother is loaning it to me to see if she knows but I think I'll leave it be and see how things shake out.

              It's probably better this way, he obviously has a weird reason for not wanting to loan it to me so I am better off not feeling any more obligated to them than I already do just in case this whole thing doesn't work out. It's really making me wonder if I made the right decision to let them back in at all. I certainly didn't do it for cash.
              Sunny days, sweeping the, clouds away. On my way, to where the air is sweeeet!!! Can you tell me how to get, how to get to......LOL

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                #8
                Disappointment and confusion

                oh my...

                Oh Happy,

                Well this too shall pass some suggestions: first, contact creditors in writing... often times they are more forgiving than you'd think... also, can you schedule a "boom payment" at that time.

                As for the family -- it can be infuriating I know I am one of 7 children & it amazes me sometimes how the youngest is treated vs. the others. Kudos to you for being the bigger person in general. Give it some time...

                Thanks for your reply to my post -- I should have known you were from NYC! How I would love to be there now! By chance is 68 your birthyear?

                Hang in there! Liz

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                  #9
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                  yes very bizarre. i do think there must be something else going on that you are unware about. maybe he does suspect you of being after money-- but not likely since you have not done that before and since you are only asking for a small amount. could he be a little freaked out about your daughter? maybe he has some misconception about autism? or maybe he just thinks you have always managed and he thinks it is good to be "tough"?

                  whatever, you are obvisously handling it. anyway, i'd go for the credit card loan-- if it's for a short time, it won't cost so much, and then it's all your private business.
                  Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life... And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

                  Steve Jobs, Stanford Commencement Adress, 2005

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                    #10
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                    Well, I'll get it from my bro- I've loaned him some money in the past and I think he feels good to be able to finally help me out.

                    My dad and stepmom are usually the type that like to come in and 'save the day" if you will, and then boast about all their good deeds to whomever will listen so this is all sorts of weird. Altruism is not part of their vocabulary, lol.

                    He may be trying to teach me some weird lesson because I initiated the estrangement (lots of issues because he left my mom because when she was dying back in 1992 and I suspected he was drinking again when i stopped talking to them) but this is a horrible way to go about it, especially if he wants to be a part of our lives. My dad is no prize and he is pretty fortunate to have us back at all frankly, so he shouldn't push his luck!

                    Oh and my the way, my brother and I are twins and I was always favored growing up because I was the one who never f-ed up (until now). And yes, born in 1968!
                    Sunny days, sweeping the, clouds away. On my way, to where the air is sweeeet!!! Can you tell me how to get, how to get to......LOL

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                      #11
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                      Happy, it sounds like Dad has some issues. But if you just reconciled recently perhaps he thinks it is for the money? I am sure it is not but just a thought...In any event, I have many friends who have been in the same situation. The responsible one gets screwed and the irresponsible one gets the dough. Try to maintain some distance and acknowledge that he is free to spend his money how he wants...I would take note of the situation but move on and solve it yourself. You will feel better. Congrats on the new job. You will be in good shape soon!

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                        #12
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                        Hi Camps,

                        60 days will come quickly and in the meantime, as you said, your brother is probably delighted to help. If your dad had helped you would aided the martyrdom and taken away the good feeling your brother has for being able to help. I am glad for the happy ending of brother coming to the rescue.

                        All the best,

                        xo
                        lucky

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                          #13
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                          Camper, I'm so sorry you your dad me you so upset. I agree with l the pope, oops lucky, brother has the privilege of returning a favor.

                          xo
                          Enlightened by MWO

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                            #14
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                            The best person to talk to is your dad. No point speculating.

                            Either ring him up and talk to him or write a letter.

                            He won't know what you are thinking/feeling unless you tell him.

                            And you obviously have no idea what's going on in his head!
                            It always seems impossible until it's done....

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                              #15
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                              I agree with flip, that you need to talk to your dad directly not just speculate, but i think that is something you can do further down the road. right now, you had a sort of emergency and you solved it-- take on the dad issue when you feel ready for it.
                              Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life... And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

                              Steve Jobs, Stanford Commencement Adress, 2005

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