Havnt been around for a while, have been having serious battleing issues with myself, the depression is getting pretty bad, and when i dont drink i just feel so alone, (my mum always said lonleness is a sickness). I have a few nights wasted and dont remember a think, but mostly i just sit and beat myself up, wondering how i got here, and what happened to all my friends, i know people have there own lives but this is not funny, i am so desperate for some company, I am sick of ringing everyone and no one rings me , please tell me that this will get better, i am taking the supps (ran out of kudzu) I am on antidepressants havent really listened to the taps(working all the time) trying to be positive, i just wish i had family to turn to, i have my kids but everytime i look into there eyes i feel so ashamed, what sort of life is this for them, maybe there dad is right i should move out and let him move in, he thinks i am just a waste of space, my kids said that they want to stay with me , its just so hard to be a single mum, and work with no support at all.
anyway enought . Hope everyone else is doing better than me take care, try to be a bit happier next post.:upset:
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