Feeling bad

[Jacy]

I am feeling really awful today. I called a family relative on the weekend and I guess he didn't really want to talk. Usually I can take a hint, but is one of my chatty moods. Needless to say he got mad at me and asked me if I was drinking and why do I call and so on am I really that lonely. I felt very offended and asked if he was smoking dope. It just hurt the words he used. This isn't the first time that he said some cutting and hurtful things. That is just how he is. I feel really bad for implying that he was smoking dope. I guess so many times I have put up with people saying hurtful things that I just lashed out. I don't normally do that and it has been bugging a lot. I think to that it really bothered me when he said that I was lonely because I actually am and have been feeling that way for a long time. Sorry everyone if I sound like I am whining. I needed to vent.

[Beaches]

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Jacy you had a very normal reaction to his question to you. Sounds like he's not high with the charm factor. Family can be the most brutal.

I hope he feels as bad for upsetting you as you do for upsetting him.

[Accountable for Me]

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I agree with Beaches.

Family is brutal. Every time I phoned my sister she would ask if I were drinking with an insulting tone to her voice. Funny thing is when I stopped she kept on asking me. (No I don't slur in real life when sober) I was so p'd off and hurt. I haven't spoken to her since April. I had enough of her thinking she was better than I. She has a problem with drinking too, just not as excessive as I was. I never phoned her totally tanked either.

Just because we have a drinking problem, it doesn't mean we aren't worthy of the same love, respect, etc, as individuals without .

You don't need to be spoken too that way. You acted in self defense. Stop feeling so bad. It might make him think about the way he treated you.

[hart]

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(((Jacy)))

I'm sorry you are feeling lonely. You are always welcome and appreciated here. Family can be brutal. I haven't talked to my dad since May. Don't worry about what you said but if it will make u feel better call and apologize. But be warned if you apologize and he doesn't for what he said you will be more hurt.

Take care hon.

[Jacy]

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Thanks Beaches, Accountable for me & Hart.

The thing is that I know that my family doesn't understand my problem. (knock on wood) that one is experiencing it. I just wish they would understand that I am struggling with it and I don't want do that anymore.

I come to this sight for support. I am at all time low. I have been given some really good advice in the past and have decides that since I still continue to struggle moderating that I will purchase supps that have been recommended. I spend so much $ on liquor that hopefully i will start saving. I have been thinking about this and after reading so many posts on what is best to take. I am willing to do.

I hope everyone is having a better day than I am.

Jacy

[Cinders]

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Sorry!!

Jacy,

I can only imagine how badly that comment must have felt at the time.

I am sorry.

At least here you don't have people who will react that way to your need for company and companionship!!

Family and friends can sometimes be very hurtful.

Put it behind you and go on.

You have friends here who will not do that to you!!

Cindi

[diamond]

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I am sorry Jacy,

definitely family can be more hurtful than friends, they feel they have an open book to speak as they want. even though they themselves are not innocent

Don't take what he said to heart.
Diamond x

[ducky]

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Jacy, sorry you are down. It's ok to be lonely. Most of us are at one time or another. But for him to say it like that makes you a loser makes HIM a loser. I would not bother apologizing. Just get the supps and get involved here and move on. You will do great!

[IAD]

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Jacy,
Assholes come in all sizes ! What ever his size.....it fits !!! IAD

[magic]

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Hi Jacy

I'm sorry you're feeling so blue.

People can be so cruel and not even seem to care. My father was like that.
Cutting remarks, that burnt a hole in my soul.

Don't let this person take your power, even a little bit.
You were reacting to his cruelty...good for you.

No one has the right to treat you like that, I don't care who they are.

Can you look out into your community for some support, an addictions councelor perhaps?

My best,

magic xxx :schmokin:

[Finkle]

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Peasants, why do people automatically assume that we have been on the booze when we make a phone call, it really gets me goping that does... Especially when they are no different.. My parents ring me all the time when they have had a few but if I ring them they will call me the next day and be so hypocritical....

[retteacher]

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Jacy: A week or so ago, I realized how isolated I had become because of alcohol. I've now got some sobriety behind me, & I've realized that I can do something about my lonliness. Last week, I called some friends that I had lost touch with & invited them for brunch tomorrow. They were all very receptive, & I'm really looking forward to it. Today, I'm getting my house straightened up & bathing my dog in anticipation. As I'm doing this, I can't help saying to myself: "Oh, this is what people do in place of getting blotto when they're bored, lonely, etc." Cheer up...you're worth it! Mary

[buckledown]

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So sorry Jacy...since i quit drinking have been struggling with defining my relationships with my family as well...It is hard .....we are all changing...everyday is a new day and we change a little more and so do the way we interact with others...keep your chin up and keep trying...things will get better and we are all here to help and listen...buckle

[Jacy]

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I just wanted to reply to all of your wonderful support. I think that the reason I am so hard on myself is because I disappoint myself so much.

I will be on holidays for the next two weeks and I am scared I really want to be AF. I will not have access to the internet and I am going to really miss the support you all have given me. I will really miss everyones posts.

Thanks to all of you for keeping up.

[magic]

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Jacy----

Have a wonderful holiday and be good to yourself, you deserve it!

magic xx :schmokin: