I'M JUST CURIOUS EVERYBODY
I believe in God, I believe that we are given signs everyday but sometimes we just don’t see them. With that said I got to work, opened up my MSN homepage to search for products (I am in purchasing) and the first story like strobe lighted to me and said that drug Topamax used for migraines had been found to reduce addictive behaviors that were associated with the brain and it mentioned alcohol and gambling I think. Anyway, I read the story, googled Topamax and I got to this sight. I bought the book and supp. instantly, called my doctor and made an appointment for the next day to try to get Topamax and here is the sad part......my doctor said why would you come to me, I'm not a substance abuse specialist? I said, I know but you are my general MD and I need a referral to see anyone else, she said she would help me and gave me a referral. She left the office and I heard her and the 2 receptionist talking about, who ever would have thought...how embarrassing...why drag us into her issues...all she cares about is a prescription and she can forget that...I was embarrassed, so humiliated, I wanted to die. Anyway, I swallow the lump in my throat, walked out and they handed me the referral and said someone will get with you within 4-6 weeks...can you believe that? 4-6 weeks, I come to you desperate and you blow me off and I say I need help I know this get me to a specialist and you say 4-6 weeks. That made me feel 3 times worse than when I went in. I went home and decided I would not let them ruin this for me or make me feel worse about myself than I already make myself feel everyday when I wake up to be reminded of what I did, or said to my kids the night before, or I see throw up in the toilet and don’t remember throwing up and pray to God the kids didn't see it...anyway, I digress...so I went on line and found a company to sell me Topamax, I paid for express shipping it said payment approved your shipment will arrive in 7-10 days, that was 12 days ago and it still isn't here. I am listening to the CD's, which I love, I am taking the supp. which make me horribly bloated and gassy, I have reduced my alcohol intake but it is a struggle, I crave it all the time, the supp. aren't taking the craving away and it is so hard. I hope my Topamax comes tomorrow!
I believe in God, I believe that we are given signs everyday but sometimes we just don’t see them. With that said I got to work, opened up my MSN homepage to search for products (I am in purchasing) and the first story like strobe lighted to me and said that drug Topamax used for migraines had been found to reduce addictive behaviors that were associated with the brain and it mentioned alcohol and gambling I think. Anyway, I read the story, googled Topamax and I got to this sight. I bought the book and supp. instantly, called my doctor and made an appointment for the next day to try to get Topamax and here is the sad part......my doctor said why would you come to me, I'm not a substance abuse specialist? I said, I know but you are my general MD and I need a referral to see anyone else, she said she would help me and gave me a referral. She left the office and I heard her and the 2 receptionist talking about, who ever would have thought...how embarrassing...why drag us into her issues...all she cares about is a prescription and she can forget that...I was embarrassed, so humiliated, I wanted to die. Anyway, I swallow the lump in my throat, walked out and they handed me the referral and said someone will get with you within 4-6 weeks...can you believe that? 4-6 weeks, I come to you desperate and you blow me off and I say I need help I know this get me to a specialist and you say 4-6 weeks. That made me feel 3 times worse than when I went in. I went home and decided I would not let them ruin this for me or make me feel worse about myself than I already make myself feel everyday when I wake up to be reminded of what I did, or said to my kids the night before, or I see throw up in the toilet and don’t remember throwing up and pray to God the kids didn't see it...anyway, I digress...so I went on line and found a company to sell me Topamax, I paid for express shipping it said payment approved your shipment will arrive in 7-10 days, that was 12 days ago and it still isn't here. I am listening to the CD's, which I love, I am taking the supp. which make me horribly bloated and gassy, I have reduced my alcohol intake but it is a struggle, I crave it all the time, the supp. aren't taking the craving away and it is so hard. I hope my Topamax comes tomorrow!
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