Alcohol is not my friend

[InnerStrength]

Alcohol is not my friend

Hi guys
I too have come to the realization finally - that I cannot drink moderately. As others have said, I have realized that I dont want to drink to enjoy the taste - my goal is to get drunk, most times. I also have realized I use alcohol as a coping tool, and I want to be strong enough to learn to cope on my own.
Thanks for this thread.
jen

[rottrod]

Alcohol is not my friend

Praying for you Rocky,
Get the Topa...it's been such a help to me.

[gabby]

Alcohol is not my friend

I used to drink cuz I loved beer. But over time and life.....it changed and the beer got its clutch in me. Now I have control of my life again but I can never give the beer a ride again.

[MDBiker]

Alcohol is not my friend

retteacher;171659 wrote: I keep asking myself why that little demon inside me rears its ugly head when I've been feeling so great. Mary

"alcohol is not my friend."

Rocky brother, that is the truth. It is a great achievement to realize this fact; and that you can never drink again. It will set you free from the internal thoughts telling you drinking is ok. Give it up, and take it out of your life. I think we do go through the same feelings we would if we lose a loved one. It was that dear to me. But much like losing a loved one, when alcohol is dead it is out of your life forever. Don't dwell on the past, move on with a new free spirit. You can do this; I know you can. Do it for you; you are worth it.

God Bless
bear

[Mags]

Alcohol is not my friend

I just love you bear. Everything you say is so right on.

[diamond]

Alcohol is not my friend

Rocky,

i am sorry you feel down too,

I don't think I will ever moderate either.. as retteacher says ''I don't have the off switch..''

I have the on and on switch instead !!

Keep your faith in front of you

Diamond x

[AMELIA]

Alcohol is not my friend

Rocky, Alcohol is not my friend either.

[Guest]

Alcohol is not my friend

Alcohol is a friend to noone.

Alcohol is the greatest traitor that, given half a chance, will strip us of all that we have and all that we are.

Starlight Impress

[jimbo]

Alcohol is not my friend

I don't think that alcohol can be a friend to any true addict (such as myself). I also just can't believe that any true alcoholic can ever really moderate - eventually it will all just escalate to what Rocky said: hospital, jail, or a coffin. It was going to be the latter for me. In the end I was drinking alcohol just to feel normal. That was the turning point for me.

Bear said something to the effect that you have to realize that alcohol can no longer be a part of your life ever again. So true. I did something very drastic to symbolically bury alcohol from my life forever. The day after I had my last drink, I went to the liquor store and bought 10 half gallons of my drink of choice - 10 yr. Old Charter Bourbon Whiskey. Actually, I could only buy eight bottles at the first liquor store because that was all they had. Had to go to a second to get the next two. Should have seen the look on people's faces when I wheeled out eight half gallons of whiskey! I went to my back yard, dug a 3 ft. grave and poured all the whiskey into the ground, covered it with dirt, and threw the bottles in the trash can. Yes, this cost me over $300.00 dollars and a "silly little private ceremony", but somehow it gave me a great psychological separation from alcohol almost immediately. I then went to an addiction specialist to deal with my withdrawals. With meds and with conviction, I am now on 34 days with no drink or even the thought of one as of yet.

Bury it forever and have your life back.

jimbo

[jimbo]

Alcohol is not my friend

Sorry Rocky. I misstated. It was AAthlete who talked about if he didn't quit he'd end up in the hospital, jail, or dead. It is still a very true statement that all of us hard core alcoholics can relate to.

jimbo

[trixietrack]

Alcohol is not my friend

whoa wow alcohol is a strong substance. and a person's reaction to it can be moderate, to awful, depending on how long and how healthy one is..
to me it has become a good thing, (better than xanex) or a terrible thing (worse than being sober and being loved or vice versa).

[Hannah]

Alcohol is not my friend

Rocky

I am just like you, I could never moderate. I find that if I try that, it's always in the back of my head, and I am constantly calculating how much is moderation and how much is too much? If I drink two glasses of wine tonight, how many days before I can have some more before I am no longer classified as "Moderate?'" and if I have just one glass of wine and the rest of the bottle is sitting in the fridge, am I actually going to be able to leave it there? and the answer for me is no, I can't. It's just mentally exhausting to even try. I find it much, much easier just to say I am just not going to drink anymore - period. I do drink because I love the taste of it, but I also drink to get drunk, so making myself stop at one or two glasses would put so much strain on me that I find it easier just not to have any at all.

And it's actually a pretty good place to be, sober, that is.

[retteacher]

Alcohol is not my friend

Hi Everyone:

I just read this great thread through. I'm beginning to see that the realization that I cannot drink at all is very liberating. I can't have a drink or 2 & then put an open bottle in the fridge. I have to drink the whole bottle, whether I want it or not. That's a true compulsion. I know deep in my heart that 1 drink will start the cycle all over again, & that knowledge is what will keep me sober. I cannot stop once I start.

Jimbo, what an incredible ceremony. You did what you had to do, & $300 is a very small price to pay for a sane life. Hannah, I can so identify w/the obsessive thinking that goes along w/drinking. Where, when, how much, etc. etc. I get brain fatigue just thinking about it. By the way, is your avatar your puppy? If so, I have it's mate. Mine is a male (Buddy), & he's apricot not white. The perky little face is the same though.

Yours, Mary

[notmay]

Alcohol is not my friend

Has anyone moderated with the topa until withdrawal symptoms have diminished enough to where your body isn't craving it so much? Then you're more likely to go AF?

[Mags]

Alcohol is not my friend

Wonderful thread, Rocky.
Many of us have made alcohol our best friend, lover, etc. It is a false friend who will make you feel good and then betray you and hurt you. Best to stay as far away from it as possible. It's abs or nothing for me. I too cannot moderate.