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[Determinator]

dropped Dx (my loverly wife) off at the airport this morning and I'm all on my lonsome in a 24-hour town that gives away alcohol for free to encourage you to gamble.

The last time I flung myself off the wagon i was in this same exact spot with my eyes wide shut. I said "I'll be fine" but my inner dumbass was quietly chanting "toga toga toga....." that combined with letting go of several important coping skills ( supplement schedule, party with wine drinking friends etc) and blammo....owch.

43 days AF and I'm not letting my guard down this time. Just got back from the store...walked the aisles....and got my N/A beer and N/A wine etc. I feel like I'm being more honest with myself than i ever have...that's the key. Knowing ourselves. Sounds simple however we realize it's enormously challenging. Challenges are good.

No need to reply...just had to type this out and transmit it into the ether for therapy...
I'm sure I don't say it enough so: Thank you all for your huge support!

ahhhhhhhhhh......

[n2itiv]

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New mantra:

Topa Topa Topa ...

... whether you take it or not

[Java]

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Sounds like you got a good plan D!
I am proud of you, I know the partier inside is screaming right now.

[lucky 2.0]

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Hang touch D and I like your new Topa mantra that N2 has given you! Nothing will feel so good as having Dx back and feeling proud of yourself.

[Mags]

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Good for you - the AF beer is not so bad when you drink it with good food.

Go on chat tonight - that is more addictive than the bad stuff sometimes.

My DH is out of town, and that has made it tough on me, also - except for all the hansome young guys I have beating away from my door. :H Machetes work pretty well.

[Bookish]

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Hi D.

I'm home alone too, we can be home alone together. I just walked in the door and poured myself my new favorite non-alcoholic bev. I mix Baja Bob's no sugar Mai-Tai mix with club soda and it rocks. I have tried NA beer and wine, but I don't like beer much and I can't find a NA wine around here that is drinkable. What brand do you buy?

Laura

[Arial]

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Hi D -

Great to hear you're so well armed and prepared :goodjob: - I know you can do it so make yourself proud and celebrate a sober w/e when Dx comes back! :l

[happycamper68]

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Hon, you have you remember how supportive she has been and how disappointed you would be in yourself and how she would be as well if you slipped while she was gone. You have to remember you are NOT just doing this for her. This will be a good exercise for you. Start cooking. :h

[Determinator]

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super! thanks again friends.

LauraLynn, I like the Ariel brand that's made by J Lohr. I get the 'rouge'. not bad. I don't drink it all the time but for an N/A vino it's really not bad.

dopa dopa dopa

[nancy]

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oooh what a challenge and temptation...

but it sounds like you are on top of it, so GREAT.

I like Amber O'Douls, tastes like the real thing to me.

[Guest]

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Get the garlic out ....

[gabby]

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Very good D!

[SKendall]

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D. I know where you are sitting right now my friend. I am not a big friend of a.f. beer and wine, because it's a frustrating experience. For me it's like trying to smoke a cigarette through a chalk filter. Try to drink things with true flavor and taste, rather than something so fake. You are a true gourmet, and you know the difference.

In the meantime, stay with us and it's just a temporary situation, not a permanent one.

Love to you and DX.

[rottrod]

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Hey D.

I can see that you are all set and ready to be successfully AF. Try some new recipes. that's what I do when DH is gone. That way I don't serve him the miserable failures. I got this recipe once for Kung Pao Chicken that was supposed to be PF Changs....no way! it was lousy..I couldn't even fix it. In the trash it went and he never knew....

Keep us posted.

Rot

[Mackeral]

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A man with a plan...Stay strong D..