I've just come back from a week abroad with my husband and 2 friends. They all drank a fair bit every night, 4 or 5 bottles between the 3 of them. I drank 1 glass every other night. It was hard not to binge but i quite enjoyed the clear headed feeling. Its funny how peoples moods suddenly brighten up so much when they start drinking. Mine stays the same.
I have to admit that this holiday wasnt as much fun as it would have been if I had drunk to excess but hey.......I can't do excess anymore and I'm grieving. I suppose I should be celebrating but these pregnancy hormones are really strong at the moment. I'm feeling really vulnerable at the moment. Before i went away I spent the entire day sobbing. My face afterwards looked like a horror film!!!! I feel totally out of control with my weight aswell. Normally I am 9 and a half stone but I'm now 11 stone and I need to diet. But you are not supposed to diet if you are pregnant. I am a whale who can't drown her sorrows or smoke anymore. Next Thursday i have my 20 wk scan at the hospital. I need to see that there is a baby in there because at the moment I'm losing heart about all this.
Sorry......I needed a moan. Can't moan to anyone I know, I'm supposed to be elated and happy all the time. I miss my Citaloprams so much. Thanks for listening.....If you are!!!!! Bella xx
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