Morning y'all! I have been on 50 mg topa for about 1 month now. In that period of time I have managed to cut waaaaay back on both my wine and snacking. I have had many more AF nights than nights of any drink, and the snacks have almost all disappeared. As a result, I have dropped 6 pounds as well! However, I have managed on 4 different occasions to go past the topa barrier. 3 times I over drank, 1 time I over ate-1/2 of a BIG bag of chips in one sitting while reading a novel. The funny thing is I felt as bad the next day after eating all the chips as I did after drinking 4 0r 5 glasses of wine!
Last night was an over drinking night. I had a bottle of chilled chardonnay while watching A Night At the Museum (more on the movie later). In retropect, I can see that there were a number of triggers, one right after another, most relating to self care.
1. hubby was gone on business(he travels LOTS-gone more than he is home)
2. I did not stick to my normal schedule, so things were off kilter
3. Since my schedule was off, I didn't remember to eat OR take supps and topa on schedule
4. I didn't eat nearly enough protein
5. I wasn't drinking enough water either
6. By the time I was running errands in the afternoon, the combination of no/late food/supps/topa/ I didn't even stop and think, just grabbed that chilled bottle as I was cruising down the back aisle for milk (they keep milk/eggs/ect on shelves with beer & wine
) But I only got 1.
So anyway, I fixed a quick dinner, we ate, I felt better, got youngest into bed, older kids wandered off to their rooms, and I sat down with my movie and wine. I only got buzzed, realized I don't like feeling buzzed, so that is probably why I keep going-to get past the buzz. But I only bought the 1 bottle, so there I was. I just went to bed.
The movie was interesting. The main character had to take on a job (night watchman at the museum) that he felt was beneath him in order to keep his apartment so his 10 year old son could continue to spend the weekends with him. It made me really think about the choices we make every day that impact our kids, good and bad, and the stuggles many have been having around here. I want to make choices that will make my kids proud of me!
So anyways, if you have made it this far, just wanted you to know that I am continuing to learn and sharpen my skills. Everyday is a new day, and today I am choosing to celebrate life, love my life & kids, and express my joy at another day:dancin:
Last night was an over drinking night. I had a bottle of chilled chardonnay while watching A Night At the Museum (more on the movie later). In retropect, I can see that there were a number of triggers, one right after another, most relating to self care.
1. hubby was gone on business(he travels LOTS-gone more than he is home)
2. I did not stick to my normal schedule, so things were off kilter
3. Since my schedule was off, I didn't remember to eat OR take supps and topa on schedule
4. I didn't eat nearly enough protein
5. I wasn't drinking enough water either
6. By the time I was running errands in the afternoon, the combination of no/late food/supps/topa/ I didn't even stop and think, just grabbed that chilled bottle as I was cruising down the back aisle for milk (they keep milk/eggs/ect on shelves with beer & wine
) But I only got 1.So anyway, I fixed a quick dinner, we ate, I felt better, got youngest into bed, older kids wandered off to their rooms, and I sat down with my movie and wine. I only got buzzed, realized I don't like feeling buzzed, so that is probably why I keep going-to get past the buzz. But I only bought the 1 bottle, so there I was. I just went to bed.
The movie was interesting. The main character had to take on a job (night watchman at the museum) that he felt was beneath him in order to keep his apartment so his 10 year old son could continue to spend the weekends with him. It made me really think about the choices we make every day that impact our kids, good and bad, and the stuggles many have been having around here. I want to make choices that will make my kids proud of me!
So anyways, if you have made it this far, just wanted you to know that I am continuing to learn and sharpen my skills. Everyday is a new day, and today I am choosing to celebrate life, love my life & kids, and express my joy at another day:dancin:
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