Morning y'all. I haven't been around much the past 2-3 weeks; we had company, and I've been crazy busy with work and all the back to school hoopla.I have checked in and read, kind of caught up on what was happening around here-whoo- some days can be crazy in here
I've been feeling pretty quiet and introspective, not feeling like talking much. I had been at 50 mg of Topa for a month or so, it was working amazingly well. I had some of the usual side effects, but nothing too dramatic. I stopped taking my SAMe that I had been taking for several months as it is very expensive and the out of pocket Topa is also. I began experiencing dry burning eyes about 3 weeks ago, and decided to go back to 25mg Topa to see if that would help. My eyes are still kinda burny though.
I don't know if it is the no SAMe , the less Topa, a combination or what, but just feeling low, and have managed to polish off a bottle of wine per night several nights a week for 2 weeks now. Nothing dramatic happens, I just go to bed. Then I can't sleep. When I drink more than 2 glasses of wine, I am awake at 2 am till the wee small hours of daybreak.
SO, I know I need to change this NOW before the pattern of habit becomes too ingrained again. It is easy for me to say, oh nothing bad has happened, I am at home, blah blah blah. I know why I am wanting to control this, and I know that I am a powerful and amazing person- I CAN do this. SO why am I back to a bottle a night a couple of nights a week?
I bought the SAMe yesterday, and began again this morning. I stopped the Topa last night, 25 wasn't doing it. I have my pill box set up with all the supps and vitamins, and I am going to be doing the South Beach phase 1 as well to eliminate all the sugars as well so they won't be a trigger also. Kill all those cravings in one fell swoop:H I need to listen to the cd's more consistently. I need to walk more consistently as well.
So, if you've made it this far, thanks, and a swift kick to tell me to get off my rear and stop playing around with my life would be awfully appreciated
I've been feeling pretty quiet and introspective, not feeling like talking much. I had been at 50 mg of Topa for a month or so, it was working amazingly well. I had some of the usual side effects, but nothing too dramatic. I stopped taking my SAMe that I had been taking for several months as it is very expensive and the out of pocket Topa is also. I began experiencing dry burning eyes about 3 weeks ago, and decided to go back to 25mg Topa to see if that would help. My eyes are still kinda burny though.
I don't know if it is the no SAMe , the less Topa, a combination or what, but just feeling low, and have managed to polish off a bottle of wine per night several nights a week for 2 weeks now. Nothing dramatic happens, I just go to bed. Then I can't sleep. When I drink more than 2 glasses of wine, I am awake at 2 am till the wee small hours of daybreak.
SO, I know I need to change this NOW before the pattern of habit becomes too ingrained again. It is easy for me to say, oh nothing bad has happened, I am at home, blah blah blah. I know why I am wanting to control this, and I know that I am a powerful and amazing person- I CAN do this. SO why am I back to a bottle a night a couple of nights a week?
I bought the SAMe yesterday, and began again this morning. I stopped the Topa last night, 25 wasn't doing it. I have my pill box set up with all the supps and vitamins, and I am going to be doing the South Beach phase 1 as well to eliminate all the sugars as well so they won't be a trigger also. Kill all those cravings in one fell swoop:H I need to listen to the cd's more consistently. I need to walk more consistently as well.
So, if you've made it this far, thanks, and a swift kick to tell me to get off my rear and stop playing around with my life would be awfully appreciated
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