I had read that on Campral if you slip it will make your slip less bad but that is simply not true, not for me anyway. I woke up this morning and there was a glass of wine on the bedside table next to me. First thing I saw when I opened my eyes. I am disgusted with myself and took the the day off from work today. Reading Adria's story made me even more ashamed of myself, plus it was Mother's Day, what a great mom I am. I remember nothing past around 7pm last night I think, and I think it's because of the Campral, the wine, and the Klonopin. My husband is talking to me but I can tell he's pissed and I am too embarrassed to ask him what happened last night and how did I end up in bed with a glass of wine. I know we must have had a fight because he slept on the couch.
My family took me to brunch for Mother's Day and I chatted with pansy and some others Sat night asking for advice about how to handle it because you get a free drink with brunch. Not only did I not do what they advised but I drank Sat night! At 9pm I announced I wanted a glass of wine, I had a huge craving and should have taken an L-Glut. My husband tried to talk me out of it but there was no stopping me and I thought on the Campral I would nurse one and that would be it. I drank a half a bottle (maybe a little more) and decided that at brunch I would skip the drink and start anew. But I didn't. My family doesn't know so they were offering me drinks when my glass was empty and I just never said no. My husband couldn't stop me because my family doesn't know. Even when it was dessert time I ordered a glass of wine instead. Then a woman I haven't seen in ages who is 82 came in and had a sad story, that her hubby had to be put into a home because he developed dementia and she was very sad. This is the second husband has has lost. I knew both of them very well. She is an alcoholic too and isn't going to stop, she's 82 and has had it rough. I'm certainly not going to preach to an 82 year old woman about her drinking while I'm sitting there drinking with her.
My family left and I told my husband I'd be home in 20 minutes (this place is right up the street from where we live). Well 2 hours later he comes back with the baby in the stroller and hands me my cell phone and storms out with her. This must have been about 5pm.
So now I have to start from scratch. I was 11 days abs, does this mean I have to be at day 1 again? Please tell me no, someone...Patty
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