I just want to report that I have been feeling so much better than I have in a very very very very long time. Physically, mentally, spiritually.
Getting out of the difficult relationship was huge of course.
Best of all, I have been drinking significantly less than I had been for many years. When I do drink (two nights a week lately) I drink less and do not have those terrible feelings of shit and guilt. The nights I don't drink are easy and smooth - no terrible cravings and misery.
I have been a much better mom to my girl. I'm more focused and productive at work. I am taking care of responsibilites - like bills and budget, health, household stuff.
Rather than being stuck in anger and resentment and blame in relationships (ex's, parents, etc) I've somehow just let it all go and am taking an honest, non-judgemental look at how I am in relationships.
And - lo and behold - I have a new friend. Myself! I like me again!! Yesterday I spent the entire day at home alone and enjoyed hanging out with myself - and I didn't have a drop to drink! I have hope and commitment to get healthy, and am feeling fine just as I am right here in this moment.
So... just wanted to report the changes... I haven't yet reached my goal of 100% AF but I have come a long way, baby!
Getting out of the difficult relationship was huge of course.
Best of all, I have been drinking significantly less than I had been for many years. When I do drink (two nights a week lately) I drink less and do not have those terrible feelings of shit and guilt. The nights I don't drink are easy and smooth - no terrible cravings and misery.
I have been a much better mom to my girl. I'm more focused and productive at work. I am taking care of responsibilites - like bills and budget, health, household stuff.
Rather than being stuck in anger and resentment and blame in relationships (ex's, parents, etc) I've somehow just let it all go and am taking an honest, non-judgemental look at how I am in relationships.
And - lo and behold - I have a new friend. Myself! I like me again!! Yesterday I spent the entire day at home alone and enjoyed hanging out with myself - and I didn't have a drop to drink! I have hope and commitment to get healthy, and am feeling fine just as I am right here in this moment.
So... just wanted to report the changes... I haven't yet reached my goal of 100% AF but I have come a long way, baby!
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