I hate my life

[buddha27]

Hey everyone,

I hate getting up every morning, depressed as always. I put on a ,fake as hell, happy face and try to get throgh the work week. If I look depressed at work people want me to air out my personal business when I know they don't give a shit. My family and friends don't understand how I feel about any given issue, so they get the same fake smile.

It hurts going through life not being able to feel a connection with anyone around you:upset: I drink when I'm alone because I feel this way. I know that drinking wont solve any problems.....everyone says it only makes them worse. I feel the day melt away when I start drinking. Nothing else seems to work. Meditation- Nope. Therapy- Nope. AA- Nope. I was about ready to give up until I found this book. I looked up: Quit drinking and read the entire mywayout page and ordered the book yesterday.

I've been on this forum since then looking for support until I receive the book. I wanted to thank you all again for your help. Just to update those who replied to my other post; I have gone to the doctor prior to this forum. I'll take any other advise I can get. I will try to have a good day and check back in here later.

Thanks again,

Buddha

[wonderworld]

I hate my life

Hey Buddha!

Good to hear you. It's awesome that you're here and giving MWO a try. This program, and mostly this board, is making a HUGE difference and I've only been here like a week. Keep posting.

a big hug-
Beth

[Niblet]

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Good Morning Buddha, I'm sorry to read that you are having such dark days... Have you ever thought of taking Lithium Orotate or Omega 3 ??? It is a natural way of boosting those feel good feelings we all have inside... Maybe now that the days are getting shorter, you need night therapy... Get some fresh air and some sun and see you how that makes you feel ... There are so many more ways of feeling happy without alcohol... Alcohol numbs only for a short while and then those Bad feelings pile up even worse the next day don't they ? I hope that you find "your way out"... wish you well

[Bella]

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Hi Buddha27! I wish I could say something to make you feel better. I know exactly what you mean about the fake face we use sometimes for other people. I am a great one for hiding my utter misery behind a lovely care-free smile!!!!! I think its all about fear of letting people in., and trust. Anyway, all I can say to you is we are all here to support you and 'hold your hand' so-to-speak. You WILL get there. Just remember to believe in yourself and think..."Hey, I deserve better than this!!" Try your upmost to be positive. You have a connection here. All the very best to you. Bella xxx

[Guest]

I hate my life

Hi buddha,
You WILL get your life back with M.W.O. if you totally commit to doing so, and once you take the negative alcohol out of your life, you`ll begin to see positives and opportunities which were there all along, only you were so blinded by alcohol you couldn`t see them before.
My life is far from perfect, but at almost 3 mths. sober, it`s one helluva lot better than it used to be.

Take good care of yourself........your sobriety is there for the taking.

Starlight Impress x

[buddha27]

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Yes I have tried all kinds of meds

Hello Niblet,

I have tried all kinds of meds (natural and chemical)........nothing seems to work:bang .
I need a list to see if there is something I have not tried. The Kudzu make me drink a little less. I have not read the book yet but when I do I well try everything recommended.

Thanks
Buddha27

[Niblet]

I hate my life

Hello again Buddha,
Almost sounds like you need a complete blood analysis... Have you had your thyroid checked.. Could you be menopausal? Is your iron low? Do you simply drink enough water during the day? Have you ever tried taking St. Johns Wort for atleast 1 month? Do you get outside for fresh air and a brisk walk.. Get those endorphins releasing out of your brain with the excercise... Again, I feel that light therapy or natural sunlight will help... I'd like to see you Happy I'm sending you a Hug, XX, Sincerely,

[Lunapro]

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Hey Buddha -

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I can totally empathize, I've gone through long stretches like that, where I wonder why I even bother getting up and doing it again each day...

I also tried a variety of things to cure my dark moods, drugs, prescribed and otherwise, meditation, yoga, AA, god...nothing worked for me either... until I got some time free of the alcohol. It's like the alcohol was interfering with whatever else I was doing to try to alleviate the depression.

When I was AF for a couple months, I started to feel so much better I couldn't believe it. Then, for me, even drinking just a little started the downward spiral again. And led to drinking a lot.

I would suggest following the book, it helped me where nothing else had. I use the Topa, too, and I think it's really helpful. I'm AF again, and starting to feel better once more.

Best wishes to you, it's brighter on the other side.
Jules

[Accountable for Me]

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Hi Buddha - and good morning! (From the West Coast of Canada)

Alcohol enhances the depression. Once you stop drinking and get through the worst of it, your depression will subside quite a bit. It is taking that first step and riding through the rough patch in the beginning when you will find some relief from your unhappiness.

I know you said you have been on many different medications and such. Have you tried a supplement routine? As Niblet said Omega 3's are really good for depression. I have been taking them religiously along with other vitamins and minerals and they really helped me. I was a lot like you... faking my way through life.

You won't have to fake it for long if you grab the drinking by the horns and start working on becoming sober! Please try. The pain is only short term.

[Guest]

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KEEP COMING HERE...we understand EXACTLY how you feel....EXACTLY!!!!

[Justin Time]

I hate my life

Hey Buddah,

In addition to the MWO book and program, you might also pick up a copy of the book "What you can change and what you can't..." by Martin Seligman.

Depression and drinking (for me) have been like a chicken and egg thing. I think the reason I have been having success with MWO is the multi-pronged approach I have been taking. I have been sticking to the program pretty well, shooting for moderation with good success. Many AF days and occasional social drinking without over-doing it and making an ass of myself.

These have been "tough times" emotionally, and I have been voraciously reading about "positive psychology" to try and better understand myself and my moods. There has been a lot of good scientific research in the area of optimal functioning and human flourishing in the past 10 years and there are some helpful tools in this book and another book by Seligman called Learned Optimism that I found helpful. Some of the techniques used in cognitive therapy (such as disputing your own negative thoughts) are just as easily done by yourself as with a therapist you are paying big bucks so why not give it a shot?

Of course, I also highly recommend the entire MWO program, including the hypnosis CD's, the supplements, Topamax and the support of this community.

Keep trying and you'll find what works for you.