I hate.. I love...

[meditation mama]

I hate my alcoholism.. I love the path that is has open up for me
I hate my lack of ferocity.. I love my new found softness
I hate my lack of decision making.. I love my new found subservience
I hate my lack of exercise.. I love my appreciation of sitting with myself
I hate my new, older, bigger body.. I love my new mature soft, nurturing, loving body
I hate my new shyness without alcohol.. I love my new vulnerabity
I hate my loss of the 5pm-7pm booze crutch.. I love the things I didn’t know existed between 5pm and 7pm
I hate my family.. I LOVE MY FAMILY
I hate this stage of my life.. I couldn't imagine my life anywhere else.
I hate having to check in with this board.. I love everyone here...I can't imagine where I would be without it.

Thank you all for your support and allowing me to find and express all of my feelings.. good and bad..

MM

[Flip]

I hate.. I love...

I hate that I can't do anything to ease your pain

I love that I can be here to offer support if you reach out

[beatle]

I hate.. I love...

I hate that I love alcohol
I love that I hate alcohol
I hate to be dependent on others
I love that I have learned to depend on others

[middlepathpilgrim]

I hate.. I love...

Just to share....

" What if the question is not 'Why am I so infrequently the person I really want to be,' but ' Why do I so infrequently want to be the person I really am?'"

Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Dance