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[Cashregister]

Oh boy...

Last night was horrible - aggravation (not agitiation) - v v v high.

Just went to psychiatrist - meds to be upped - am going higher - crash through ceiling time.

Just couldn't help it. Stopped at bottle-o on way back.

Only had one though. Not feeling like a binge but I want to calm calm calm......

I know some on here not into P-meds at all but oh my god, try bipolar for size, I hate this horrible feeling, I know i'm going up up up and nothing will bring me down except meds, and i HATE taking them (and yes i've been down the no med road and my best friend is a naturopath and even she wouldn't tell me to not take them- but if I didn't......

I wish people would stop talking all the time about natural bloody alternatives every time a prescribed med comes up on this BB - it's really hard to be compliant at the best of times - when like this want to chuck em down the loo - but what then....go buy a house or 2, kick a hole in the wall, scare the crap out of my 9 year old....oh if only you knew how hard it is and how easy it would be to just stop it all and well.....

Anyway, rant over and have only had one (well half way thru a glass).

Cashy

[Lowercas]

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Know how u feel

It has to stop - we tell our selves, I'm with you. All I can say is hang in there and persevere.... I sound like a councellor
take care

[KateH1]

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Oh...Cashy, sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. Take your meds! You know, I am one who prefers to stay away from RX drugs whenever possible, BUT and an this is a HUGE BUT, sometimes meds are neccessary, in fact RX Drugs can be and often are Life Savers. I think you need to understand, and I know you do when you are feeling good, that when alternative health is discussed, it is not personally meant for anyone to go off prescribed meds.

As for the drinking........please stop and switch to water, the alcohol will only complicate the issue here, as it does with almost every issue! Boy I know that for sure!

I know it's early in the day there....down under! Take your meds, have something to eat and Take Care of You!
Hugs!
KateH

[Tahlula]

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Cashy, only you know what is good for you and stick with the meds if that is what you want to do. I am on Lexapro, and have been for 2 years, I can certainly see me being on them for another 2 as well! My friends husband has bipolar, and when he doesn't take his meds there are consequences.

Hang in there Cashy, and don't beat yourself up xx

[Cashregister]

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I don't WANT to , I HAVE to.

It's so horrible....

Am onto number two, my friend (yes the naturopath!) is coming over.

I'm not anti alternative meds in any way - I WISH they could do for me what this other crap does - if ONLY.

But every discussion it comes up - and they can be life savers sometimes, and that's OK isn't it - I mean aren't there artificial things in booze?

Oh confused, I just don't want to take them anymore - big difference between wanting to and having to.

Oh and if anyone wants to know, I AM dealing with the underlying issues, I see a talk therapist who is great - but this shit is chemical - coming to terms with my childhood will not change a thing as far as the bipolar is concerned. I know BP poeple who refer to it as brain damage, pure and simple.

OH bugger, i'm sorry, I am a political person, I hate big business, drug companies, tobacco companies etc etc......I don't want to take their drugs, I don't want them to make money out of me. I KNOW all that but I have to take them still.

Oh thanks for your comments, you are all so lovely.
C

[Tahlula]

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Good luck Cashy, take care xxx

[tawnyfrog]

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Cashy - you know I'm not good at doing the hugs and kisses stuff, so I'll skip that part.

Hang in there matey - hope your friend the naturopath gets there soon. Number 2 is ok. Try not to turn it into #3 because after that ... it's all cactus.

Bugger. I so want you to find quiet.

My good thoughts are with you.

[Cashregister]

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oh tawn, thanks for the no hugs
be back when calm comes .....
Has turned into number 4
My friend is here but.....
Cash
xx

[Cashregister]

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Cactus I reckon....

[magic]

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Hey Cash,

You gotta take your medicine and so do I. There is no choice in the matter.

I couldn't give a rats ass what anyone else thinks about it.

The big drug companies don't care if Cashy takes her pills or not but her family does because they love her.

I hope the calm comes soon.

magic xx

[maxman]

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you might have seen my thread when I forgot my meds a couple of weeks ago. I have never been in that place before. we need to take them and no we are not a sheep short of a full paddock! hang in there mate

max

[beatle]

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Cashy how are you doing? hang in there. We're all here for you.

I'm also bipolar and am also one of those always talking about alternatives but that's not 'cause I am against the meds, it's just that they don't work for me. I just get sicker. I wish like anything they worked for me, but they just don't (and I've tried about every med there is). I have ALWAYS said that whatever works, do it. This also goes for quitting booze. If AA works for you, great, it just doesn't work for me. So I seek out alternatives and then I share what I find out in case there are others like me. But my golly, no way am I suggesting that people who benefit from the meds should stop them.

We're all waiting with bated breath to hear how it's going. Check in soon please.

[Guest]

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I feel for you, Cashy. I understand you not wanting to have to take meds, but commend you for accepting that you must take them. I really hope you feel better soon.........I cannot begin to imagine all that you`re going through. Saying a wee prayer for you.

Starlight Impress x

[nancy]

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Hi Cash register.

I think most of the discussions about going natural have been related to depression, not bipolar depression. Isn't bipolar a more serious condition? Not that depression can't be serious cuz I know it can be. I think you should do all the natural things like take care of your diet and exercise etc. and also take your medication.

I am in no way anti-prescription meds or anti-industry. Medication can be a life-saver. I would recommend anti-depressants to anyone who has a severe case of depression, though I would advise looking into the ones that have better side effect profiles. Speaking from experience, taking anti-depressants can open a whole new world for a person suffering from depression, particularly when you take them for the first time. It's like you feel healthy for the first time, not unnaturally happy,just healthy. It's like salvation.

I think they are very powerful drugs. On the second or third times, the transformation doesn't seem that dramatic but they can still save you from depression that gets to the point where you are very ill. My feeling about it now is that if it isn't at the extreme end, to try natural things first like quitting booze, changing diet, exercising, relaxation. But I still would say that if depression is debilitating to take meds temporarily (wean off after you get well, after 6 months). I personally consider debilitation to include: crying a lot of the time, trouble working, social isolation, suicidal thoughts.

I don't know enough about bipolar to offer advice but it sounds like it is essential for you personally to take them and stay on them.

So take your medicine and work on the other things (like therapy for your childhood issues) at the same time.

I hope you do ok Cash Register. I know you have struggled with this bipolar illness a lot as have other members and I really feel for you. Take care of yourself with whatever tools you can find, including prescription medicine.

Nancy

PS, Have you read a book called the Omega-3 connection by Andrew Stoll? Author has done research linking biploar and omega 3.

[MyHeartIsDrenchedInWine]

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Hi Cashy,

Sorry to hear you're too "up" : (

I know how bad side effects suck, my antidepressants make me a little manic but I am definitely too depressed without them. The day I was envisioning myriad creative ways to kill myself and make it look like an accident was the day I decided I needed to be medicated.

Lithium saved my husband's life, he sleeps too much but that's the price he has decided he has to pay and his life is soo much better now. I hope you're feeling better soon!


Luvya,



Myheart