F******* drink.

[Finding My Self]

Booze STINKS. I have just had my coat stolen...by pissed girls. Too pissed to have any idea of right and wrong - even if they had any idea sober....

A wonderful evening....singing lovely carols....praying....thinking of all of you....enjoying a small rose spritzer.....not wanting to finish it....fabulous interesting conversation...the type I have missed for years....musicians...inteliigent people....

Coat rolled up under the table....bunch of PISSED, half naked, sloppy young girls go to leave...I see my coat still safely there....they walk out of the door...my coat gone....run after....gone....dancing someone says....search the pubs abd bars of this town.....booze....lurching bodies....louts shouting....no coat....back to bar....musicians now all pissed too....lurching and slurring.....round to the night club.....girls being hled up as they puke all over their and their friend's feet....shouting...fighting...bouncers everywhere....booze swilling....identity needed (not me; too old)....go to coat drop off...."Nothing we can do..." "There's 700 coats in there, what do yu expect us to do about it.."

Gone. F******* GONE....the coat I was so proud of....?75....GONE....

AND ALL BECAUSE OF F****** ALCOHOL.

Even pissed I knew what was mine and what wasn't. I didn't puke in the street. I didn't bare my arse to the world. I fully expected them to bring my coat back when they realised it wasn't theirs.....naive....NO. I TRUST PEOPLE. And they abuse that trust. But I will go on trusting....or this world has gone. Finished. Ended.

My first night out in 18 months......lovely....fun....WTF did I do to deserve this then?????????

Why b***** bother.

All I know is that I don't have a problem with alcohol. 700 kids in that nightclub alone do. WTF did I think I had a problem for?

Sorry everyone.....and RJ I am sure you don't want me mouthing off here so I wont any more. BUT....

my messge is:

DON'T F******** DRINK. YOU LOOK AND ACT STUPID AND YOU HURT PEOPLE.

[Hannah]

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:l Finding - Rant away. We don't mind, and we don't blame you. I would be ranting too.

[hippie37]

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NEVER BE AFRAID TO SAY WHAT YOU FEEL

It's all those incidents you describe FMS that stop me from even attempting to sit in a boozer or club sober. The results are usually the same wherever you go where this type of drinking is encouraged. It's just a shame that your first night out in 18 months has ended up with you being the victim. The whole purpose for us not drinking is so we don't perceive ourselves as victims of our own stupid drinking habits. There are some nasty pieces of work out there at this time of year especially and we are having a number of break ins in this area ourselves, which, any other time of the year would be peacefully quite. I think this time of year we tend to see a lot of selfish acts and greed more so than any other time of the year.

I am really so sorry you have had your night ruined but at least you vented it here and didn't get triggered by your emotions to drink further due to that anger. Good on you for doing that and it only shows that you have strength of character as well.





Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

[memarcie]

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I'm so sorry you have to deal with this FMS.

[Theme2be]

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How do I sent a message here, am lost and tired of not being able to be Af. Doing the Kudzo and some suppliments until I can afford more.

Someone please walk myself through this process. Cant find some treads I have responded to.

At any rate, feeling such encouragement from you all.
Frustration at knowing where to go and find things here.

Thanks for your patience.
Karen

[Accountable for Me]

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I am sorry you had this experience as well. You are such a kind, wonderful soul and this shouldn't of happened to you.

[Finding My Self]

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Thanks so much - I am just so sad.....stupid over a coat; it was lovely - brown and knee length...nipped in at the waist, with fake fur at the wrists and around the hood - when you did that up it was like an eskimo hood....cordorouy so I could wear ir casual and smart...but mostly it was warm and cosy and I am sad because I realise it was the nearest thing to a hug that I have got at the moment. I feel sad that there seems so little softeness in my life....a long standing thing that I was addressing....soft coat, soft duvet/comforter, soft cusions and pillows....and it's taken away? I mean, you see, I lose faith in whether I am doing the right thing....working on me, changing things, taking back direction....and I know we're not in control of loads nad loads of things but....no matter what I do I seem to bark up wrong trees or be 'sent lessons' and not know what it means.... Just one night to restore faith in life and fun? No. Why not? No idea....

But as I've just said to my daughter, this woman's never going to stop thinking positive (even if it seems I am contradicting myself jsut now!) and belieiving in human beings....but I am going to try and stop beating myself up for being a sh*t person....seemingly I am pretty damned fine; I know stealing's wrong....and a few other things.

I guess - well, I am so sad inside; my daughter #1 (who got married in Sept) still wont reply to me - but she sent an email to daughter #2 yesterday - they move to Munich (Germany) on the 3rd Jan....so no way will we see them before....nor did she asy the address....for 2 years. What am I meant to have done to get 'thrown out of her life'?

My mum is having TIA's (trans ischaemic attacks - mini strokes) but doesn't want me to be more in her life than phone calls.

I miss my huggy coat - how sad is that? It's just what it 'stands for' and stubstitutes just now.... but definitely not worth a drink. Like those kids? Dog, that was eyeopeningly sad. I had felt so good to feel so 'normal'....just the one small glass..sipped genuinely slowly over 3 hours. I guess I just have to keep on looking at the (many, many) positives....Im just fed up with having to do that so often....being grateful yes please! But cancelling out the negatives of people by running all the 'could have been worse' things is sad. Shouldn't have to do that....

I'm rambling. Sorry. I'm so tired but everytime I turn the light out I cry. So I'll wander around here for a bit....

Love FMS (& FMC!)

[zige]

F******* drink.

Finding myself.
We share your pain, you have everyone to help you get through this.
Try to get some rest.(me).

[Prest4time]

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A good way to keep the coats and purse safe is to make sure that one leg of the chair you are sitting in holds the loop of your purse handle and a part of your coat. Yep... they have to sit on the floor...yuck, but you can relax and if your chair gets knocked over, then somebody is trying to take your things! And if you dont notice that, (or someone down under with some scissors) then you probably do not need a coat or purse to begin with.

[Accountable for Me]

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That is a great suggestion, Prest.

FMS - I am so sorry you are in so much pain. This season doesn't help much either. Family's can cause such misery. We love you, and I know it isn't the same by any means. I just wanted you to know anyway.

[MyOwnWoman]

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I feel it. I feel the warm hug of your coat, a solitary comfort you gifted to yourself because you deserve at least that much. And I feel the betrayal of having that comfort stolen away by the demon you yourself have been fighting so courageously to expel from your life.

And I feel so very proud for you that you went home to cry and rage and rant about it, and did not take a drink.

If there is always some good to be found in every experience, no matter how enraging or despairing, then I think that the good in this one is that you have demonstrated to your Self that you have such immense strength and resolve and goodness within you, even when you feel so thoroughly shat upon.

You are a blessed woman, and I hope to someday soon find the strength that you have tapped into within yourself.

Here I am, hugging you (pretend my hair is the fur collar).
:l :l :l :l

[magic]

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FMS ~I'm so sorry you lost your coat, had it stolen rather.

It wasn't just a coat, it made you feel better, surely we are all entitled to that!

I know that you have tried to mend fences with both your mother and daughter, have you done what you can? Have you done your best? Then that's all you can do.

I'm sending you hugs from Canada too, as soft as I can muster...wait I'll drape the cat around my shoulder first.

xxxxxx

magic xx

[dexterhead]

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I would drape my cat around my shoulder, but I would probably end up in the emergency room
FMS: your story about your coat brought back a memory. The same thing happened to me about 20 years ago ... the coat was my main Xmas present, brand-new and SO distinctive and beautiful. Only maybe the 2nd time I'd worn it, I went out with my girlfriends on New Year's Eve ... I walked away from my seat for about 10 minutes and the coat was gone, someone had obviously seen me walking in and snatched it. I was hysterical!!! Also, it was probably around zero degrees Fahrenheit ... (don't know conversion). God it sucks to have things stolen. I am sorry!

[tawnyfrog]

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Finding My Self;241261 wrote:
Love FMS (& FMC!)

I'm sorry about your coat FMS - but you know - I really had to smile at the above. It shows your resilience. An innate ability to have a laugh, or at least a giggle during a sh*tful time.

FindingMyCoat - I hope you do .... but I doubt you will. My good thoughts are winging your way.

[The Londoner]

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Finding

I know how you feel, same thing happened to me years ago and I still remember the shock and sadness as it was a very special coat -luckily I have a nice photos of me wearing it! Small comfort then as I looked around all the bins along the Charing Cross Road!

You must have been so cold last night as well,without a coat to protect you from the elements.

I too admire you for not letting those little b's get you down, especially with family stuff making you feel vulnerable too. If it's any consolation, it is better in many ways missing out on our parents' decline - I suffered such pain over my mother's final illness and death,because we loved each other too much. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, so there are positive things about not being close to your mother at this stage in your life. So sorry about the silence of your elder daughter in advance of her going abroad. Tough one, that, thank God you have got daughter 2 with you. Does she talk to her sister, could she tell her how you are feeling around this?

Returning to your coat, I hope once the shock wears off, you will go out and buy yourself another one that comforts you and keeps you hugged for the rest of this winter-and I know you will be wearing it indoors and out-that way mean thieving b's cannot take it away from you. A lesson I learnt all those years ago-I never ever let go of my possessions now, when I am out on the town! Especially at christmas where there is a mean spirit on the streets.

take good care, Finding,
Big warm :l from me!
Anna :h