Billy's Highway File

[magic]

Billy's Highway File

Jane Jane.....

You said that so well. That is exactly how I feel LUV.

Please let this be, at least for a while.

m. xx :l

[trixietrack]

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I agree with jane jane and satori. billy is no longer those morbid photographs.
the closure you are looking for is within yourself. be well

[Finding My Self]

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Wow, Luv....you must have a to to think about....so many posts since yours....I hope you're doing ok....what a ton of love is here at MWO!

Since this morning, and reading all the (deeply moving) posts, I think I too, go with the thought that Billy's soul is with you always. He's gone - but only in body. His body is only where he lived - his soul will live on always...everywhere and in you.

It strikes me that a year is no time at all...perhaps leave it for a wee while at least? Certainly unitl after Christmas? Don't punish yourself....

Time has much more healing to do - take the time it takes? Turn the corner of the year...?

But whatever you do decide, we're all here for you...big time. I guess you have a lot more pondering to do now...shall we all stop and just 'be' for you? How can we best help?

Hugs to you. And prayers to Billy.

FMS xx

[Guest]

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I have read all the posts all day and I am praying hard on this one. Billy has been gone for a year and 8 months. The meeting is not until Thursday. I respect all of you, which is why I chose to post this to begin with. I may go read the file and not look at any pictures. That is an option as well. I will continue to pray on this!!!! Thank-you all for your support.

[happycamper68]

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Hi Luvuall,

I am kinda with Lushy and others on this. Although I don't regret being at my mom's deathbed, it haunted me for a very long time, I had terrible dreams about it and I had a very hard time remembering what she looked like when she wasn't sick. She was not in an accident but she did not look like herself. What you will experience will be so much worse. The images you have in your head are not real, they are imagined. The reality of what he really looked like after the accident could be extremely traumatic for you. People imagine things all the time but the real deal is much harder to handle.

If you can't help yourself, go, and maybe look at just one pic, or read the file and read the description of the incident and decide. I have a feeling you may have your closure after one pic, since no one really wants you to look at them. They must be pretty bad hon.

I know myself, and would probably want to see them too, just to feel close to him somehow and to get closure (and maybe on some level you feel guilty for not seeing them which is normal I would think - but you have nothing to feel guilty about), but Billy would not want you to remember him that way. He want you to remember him smiling and happy. I'd hate to you see you tormented by the photos. Please think very hard about it. And like others said, you have time, it doesn't have to be Thursday. Maybe this drive to see the pics will pass. Good luck sweetie. :h

[Beaches]

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Again, best to you LUV, this has to be so hard for you. I have never been in your situation so that is why I offer you peace and strength with this decision. Let us know how you are and what you decide.

[Mags]

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All my love to you LUV. I hope whatever you do, it helps you move closer to peace.

[Guest]

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I SO appreciate all the support and love I received on this thread. I went today and I am OK! There is never closure...because you never STOP loving someone you loss, but I am at peace with my decision to go today. All I can say is it was what was right for me. The anticipation and thoughts in my mind were FAR WORSE than the reality.

[YoungAtHeart]

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I'm so glad that you made the right decision for yourself, Luvuall. You are very brave. Going today may help with healing because you got some answers to what you needed to know. But I think you are right, there is never COMPLETE closure, because the loss was so very sudden and tragic. But I truly believe that it will get better for you as time goes by.

Lots of love,:h
Kathy

[Mags]

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I am so relieved to hear you made the right decision for you. Only YOU knew what the right decision was. I hope it brought a little peace.
:h

[Prest4time]

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I think there is a united sigh of relief.....

I am so glad you did what you needed to do, (despite my warnings..lol) and it sounds like it has brought you some peace.

I hope this new year brings new surprises and much love.

[satori]

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I too am breathing a sigh of relief!.

I am SO glad it WAS right for you - I hope now that you can begin to heal a little more easily.

Love :l

Satori

xxx

[Finding My Self]

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Me, too, Luv...... I think you are very brave indeed and am so glad you found some peace.

Blessings to you, and to Billy.

May 2008 be a very happy new year for you.

FMS xx

[Guest]

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I hope you found some comfort in your decision.

Love and peace to you, LUV. :l

Starlight Impress x

[slightlysuze]

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Well done, Luv......you knew you had to do it...and you were brave enough to face it...he would be proud of you, I'm sure :l

I think you might find that as the experience 'setttles' in you, you may find it helps you to move forward and find a little more peace. You strengthened your warrior spirit by facing the fear.....and that will give you strength for other things too.

Suze x