It's been a very stressful holiday season for me. My Dad, 83, went back into the hospital three days before Christmas. My Mom called 911 because he was not doing good. A catscan showed double pneumonia. We think he has had this for some time, even though some doctors said no. Try not to give you too much info, but he has been coughing up crap for sometime.
Quick recap, Dad developed polio in his throat at age 13. Throat was paralyzed for (not sure) 1 to 2 years. Anyway, got his throat blessed (60 years ago) and everything came back to normal. After 60 years he has developed "post polio symdrome". Can no longer swallow food. No matter what he drinks or eats it goes into his lungs (this has been going on for two years). He has been on a feeding tube on and off, and in and out of the hospital for test on his throat. Actually one year ago, they put a tube down his throat to see what the problem was, and they punctured his esposghas (spelling ?) and had to have emergency surgery. They messed him up so bad. Also 3 years ago he had a quadruple bypass. The poor man is in and out of the hospital since his bypass.
Someone please tell me, is it worth going through all these surgeries just to live a little longer without a good quality of life ? My Dad said it was worth going through the bypass, where they break your ribs to get to your heart. Not sure how he feels now cause he is always sleeping and not really with it.
P.S. In between all this, he had a gang-green gallbladder. We all thought he had the flu. High fever, aches....So another surgery to remove that. How much more can he take ?
I have been visiting him in the hospital everyday since he went in before Christmas. Today he was sleeping the entire time. He woke once, I said hi Dad, and back to sleep.
Just talked to my sister, she just went to visit him and they moved him because now he has carbon dixiode in his lungs. Does not look good. Please pray one way or the other....no more pain, no more suffering..........or a MIRACLE to get him through this.
Christmas Eve was the first Christmas Eve I went alcohol free with my in-laws, I would say in 25 years. No one asked why....just asked if I wanted a wine glass, and I said no thanks. Hmm....good for me.
Then I felt great on Christmas Day, but it was the first Christmas without my Dad (as he was in the hospital), so I tried to help my Mom so much so she would not worry too much about my Dad or anything else, that I did not pay attention to my drinking. I drank way too much, and felt so horrible the next day (my digestive system......I think it is going to explode if I don't slow down or quit....I'm really getting scared).
Actually, I have been more worried about my health this past year then my Dad's. How sad is that.
So not only pray for my Dad, please pray for me. Thank you all. I love you so much.
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