Hi Guys - I write this wondering if my daily accounts are of any interest to anyone but myself - but it does help to write things down so here I am again.
Today I am well and truly over my New Years hangover - my lower back still hurt a little this morning but it seems to have gone now - is this liver pain or just back strain - I can never tell but I know it only happens after I have been drinking the night before and I feel about 20 years older - really stiff - anyway it's gone now.
I have had a relaxing day at home with the kids and more cleaning. It is so easy to clean up now - why did it ever seem so hard - it used to stress me out so much that I would blame the rest of the family for never doing anything and nearly have a panic attack. Today I don't know what the fuss was about - even tho I do. It is around 4pm and by about now the wine would be opened and that would be it from me - so there was never the time to get things done. Instead today I have just finished making a birthday card for my husband and then I will wrap his present. I then will put another load of washing on - ah to be organised - I really hated the way my whole life was unorganised from the house to my mind. I hated feeling like that but while drinking that's just what it was like. This is so much better. I never want to go back to that.
I am less selfish already - the kids would ask me for things and because everything seemed so hard I would rarely do it. They would often make their own breakfast - not that it's a bad thing, good training - but today I made it for them because I wanted to do something for them to show them I love them. They helped with the cleaning too - no yelling or threats - because I asked in a better way they did it and everyone was happy. Really looking back there was nothing good about drinking - yes it gives me that buzz but there are better Buzzes to be had - just different - I hope to find many more.
Today I am well and truly over my New Years hangover - my lower back still hurt a little this morning but it seems to have gone now - is this liver pain or just back strain - I can never tell but I know it only happens after I have been drinking the night before and I feel about 20 years older - really stiff - anyway it's gone now.
I have had a relaxing day at home with the kids and more cleaning. It is so easy to clean up now - why did it ever seem so hard - it used to stress me out so much that I would blame the rest of the family for never doing anything and nearly have a panic attack. Today I don't know what the fuss was about - even tho I do. It is around 4pm and by about now the wine would be opened and that would be it from me - so there was never the time to get things done. Instead today I have just finished making a birthday card for my husband and then I will wrap his present. I then will put another load of washing on - ah to be organised - I really hated the way my whole life was unorganised from the house to my mind. I hated feeling like that but while drinking that's just what it was like. This is so much better. I never want to go back to that.
I am less selfish already - the kids would ask me for things and because everything seemed so hard I would rarely do it. They would often make their own breakfast - not that it's a bad thing, good training - but today I made it for them because I wanted to do something for them to show them I love them. They helped with the cleaning too - no yelling or threats - because I asked in a better way they did it and everyone was happy. Really looking back there was nothing good about drinking - yes it gives me that buzz but there are better Buzzes to be had - just different - I hope to find many more.
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