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[lakota]

well im on day 5 now and feeling very tired for some reason, i uaually get up to send kids off to school at 7am, then get ready for my day, but today i fell asleep on the sofa and awoke at 10.30!! i still cant seem to keep mt eyes open!
all week ive beeen feeling ok, yet today just cant get on wiv it! maybe its just all catching up wiv me i dont know!!
well i had a bad evening yesterday, my kids were bickering wiv each other, and normally at 5pm i start to have a wee drink whilst cooking dinner ( common story i read here ) but my bad hour is normally between 7pm and 8pm, trying to get the kids ready for bed ect, was not as hard when id had a drink, and i knew i would be moody and strung out at this time, once iv got past 8.30 and kids in bed im ok, cos there is calm and i just settle down to watch tv or read my book.
my husband knows how hard this is for me and promised to be supportive and understaning of my moods but las nite he got involved in a tiff me and my youngest were having and it all got blown outta proportion, he didnt speak to me all night and i went to bed feeling very annoyed, and thinking well i just may as well have a bloody drink cos it keeps the peace.
i know im lucky that my hubby knows about my problem, i know theres lots of peeps here who hide a secret, and i have done in the past, you know all the usual tricks like, hiding one bottle in the cupboard when he thinks ive only had the one that was in the fridge ect ect.
so im in a bit of a bad mood today cos i feel angry he didnt help me, and feel as if im gonna just go and get a bottle later!!!!
help i need some inspiration cos i dont want to , i guess i just want to spite him?? gee im confused!
help?????
lv lakota xxx

[satori]

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Hi lakota,

Day five is a bitch - it is about there that your body gets rid of the last effects of alcohol.
It is also when your addiction is screaming hardest to try to reel you back in.

You feel like you want a drink today because your addiction is trying every mental trick it knows to get you to have that drink.

It is making you feel tired, it is making you feel like you want to get back at hubby for not supporting you.

The reality is - that is life - perfectly normal life - we all feel tired - we all have situations in our relationships with others that we have to deal with - that is the nature of relationships!

The addiction is taking these perfectly normal day to day feelings and emotions - and exaggerating their inportance in order for you to give in and "make it better" with alcohol.

DO NOT GIVE IN TO IT!

In a few more days / weeks - you will look back on these things with amazement that you thought they were such a big deal!

This addiction is a tricky blighter!

The good news is - after day five, the addiction's voice starts to lose its power and it gets easier and easier every day to ignore it.

Keep the faith - you are almost there.


Love

Satori

xxx

[Eastender]

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Hi Lakota,
Listen to Satori he is so right!
I have found that day 5 is my worst day and once you are over it DOES get better.

You have done so well..... Don't punish yourself now you have done nothing wrong.Get hold of a pillow and punch the daylights out of it!, get rid of the anger another way.
All the emotions that drink locks away comes out,If not moody I could cry all day at times, I like to think its my body getting rid of the poison!

Take care

Eastx

[hart]

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Lakota.

I hear you, and I'm only on AF day 3. I was sooo down last nite, I mean bad. The only thing that kept me not drinking is my hubby is an alcoholic too and HE wasn't drinking and I didn't want to tempt him. You know what I did? I said the hell with it, took to asprinpm-u know the kind w/a sleep aid, watched mindless tv and went to bed about 8:30pm. Screw it. Sometimes you just gotta hide from the world until alcohol and the world leave u alone. You did good hon. Be proud of yourself. :goodjob:

[MDBiker]

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lakota, satori is so right. You are not by yourself with these feelings and they will pass. Hang in there.

bear

[trixietrack]

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wow lakota. good job. you are detoxing and your body is craving. it will make you think and feel crazy things.
hang in there like satori said. drink water and these awful feeling will pass.

Trix

[lakota]

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well i hung in there and refused to let it get me, feel good for it too. hubby is being nice to me now cos he can see that i mean business this time.
thank you for all your kind words of inspiration, i really appreciated it!!
you lot are great, dont think i could do this without you all!!
thankx
lv lakota xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Mags]

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Great going lakota

You're going to do this!! Day 5 is a real challenge. You made it. Now hubby knows you are serious and you do too! There will still be some rough days but now you know you can do it.

This is great! Keep it up. We're always here for you.