rhonda lenair
ah well i remember cashregister went and it didn't work for her. in fact it doesn't work for 6% of the people that go there. if it worked for everyone, then i would change her name from rhonda lenair, to GOD and i would have her charging MILLIONS as it would be fool proof. lmao i mean seriously. i actually talked to them about that. so, yes, this is planet earth everything in it is fallable. and we are humans and we are in nature IMPERFECT. lmao. so that said, i had 9 years sober in AA and then i didn't. and i was always an alcoholic and i was always craving and i lived being an alcoholic because i was always susceptable.
having gone to lenair for myself, i walk away knowing that i'm recalibrated to before it ever became a patterning in my system and wiring. so i'm no longer that and don't have any behaviors with that. i also know that i can tempt fate at any time and if i take a drink i will UNRAVEL everything i've just done. so i can do that.... and then it will be my choice. i can then choose to live with those consequences and see what happens. most likely i would then go back to rhonda's and have to repeat all over and pay all over because after all it wasn't her work that failed it was me that decided to drink when i didn't want to knowing the consequences. For me i have described what happens in the room, but it would make absolutely no sense to anyone to know specifically anymore. as in that won't give you access to sobriety. if i were a doctor and explained open heart surgery and every process of it, would then you be able to be an open heart surgeon? i don't think so. the important part of my explaining was to share that i received tremendous value. since i am not trying to convince anyone, matters not to me if anyone goes to her, i felt no need to try to persuade. was just sharing "wow" for someone like me that has had 32 years of not being able to be free of thinking about alcohol and has had considerable damage occur in my life, it worked for me. what i find in life there are people who look for circumstances to see if they fit for them... me, i'm committed to making something really work for me...
as my experience with rhonda was so very deeply personal and like truly like sitting on the lap of god and such a tremendous spiritual experience it was way to personal for me to share what occured with anyone, least of all with anyone that was going to "skepticize" it. i felt like i had been given this profound gift from the universe, like a baby, i want to just hold her, nurture her and love her. and if i don't have enough days sober for any of you to consider what i have to say valid. well then, i really don't know what to tell you. funny though because you listened to me a lot before and i wasn't this sober at all. pretty fucking amazing to me.
ah well i remember cashregister went and it didn't work for her. in fact it doesn't work for 6% of the people that go there. if it worked for everyone, then i would change her name from rhonda lenair, to GOD and i would have her charging MILLIONS as it would be fool proof. lmao i mean seriously. i actually talked to them about that. so, yes, this is planet earth everything in it is fallable. and we are humans and we are in nature IMPERFECT. lmao. so that said, i had 9 years sober in AA and then i didn't. and i was always an alcoholic and i was always craving and i lived being an alcoholic because i was always susceptable.
having gone to lenair for myself, i walk away knowing that i'm recalibrated to before it ever became a patterning in my system and wiring. so i'm no longer that and don't have any behaviors with that. i also know that i can tempt fate at any time and if i take a drink i will UNRAVEL everything i've just done. so i can do that.... and then it will be my choice. i can then choose to live with those consequences and see what happens. most likely i would then go back to rhonda's and have to repeat all over and pay all over because after all it wasn't her work that failed it was me that decided to drink when i didn't want to knowing the consequences. For me i have described what happens in the room, but it would make absolutely no sense to anyone to know specifically anymore. as in that won't give you access to sobriety. if i were a doctor and explained open heart surgery and every process of it, would then you be able to be an open heart surgeon? i don't think so. the important part of my explaining was to share that i received tremendous value. since i am not trying to convince anyone, matters not to me if anyone goes to her, i felt no need to try to persuade. was just sharing "wow" for someone like me that has had 32 years of not being able to be free of thinking about alcohol and has had considerable damage occur in my life, it worked for me. what i find in life there are people who look for circumstances to see if they fit for them... me, i'm committed to making something really work for me...
as my experience with rhonda was so very deeply personal and like truly like sitting on the lap of god and such a tremendous spiritual experience it was way to personal for me to share what occured with anyone, least of all with anyone that was going to "skepticize" it. i felt like i had been given this profound gift from the universe, like a baby, i want to just hold her, nurture her and love her. and if i don't have enough days sober for any of you to consider what i have to say valid. well then, i really don't know what to tell you. funny though because you listened to me a lot before and i wasn't this sober at all. pretty fucking amazing to me.
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