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[Bella]

Hello Everyone.

I went out for lunch today with my husband and kids. Lovely roast dinner and a few glasses of coke. It was easy to NOT drink today. I have made this life-saving commitment and so thats it....no worries..

BUT... We saw a few of the people who i was with in the pub on my fateful night. They were friendly and laughing about my drunken behaviour. They told me that i was acting like i had been 'let out' for the night......hugging everyone....asking for cocaine.....and later saying how i was going to kill myself. I am horrified as you can imagine. This only re-enforces my want to knock Alcohol on the head. I suppose there is one blessing...i did not upset anyone or hurt anyone, or kill anyone!!! Only nearly... myself.

I know that today is a new day and i must put this behind me....but what else did i say? Or do?? Its so awful thinking about this...i am so humiliated..

My husband is back at work tomorrow..I'm on my own with the children and i just feel scared. For some reason i am doubting my abilities with my kids. I was fine before this incident the other night. Also, the consultant at the hospital said they would have to let my health Visitor know what happened. Maybe if i have any problems coping they will take my kids away! I will never drink anymore,,,so they can't do that can they?

Sorry....i'm just concerned.

Love, Bella xxx

[dexterhead]

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oh bella sweetie, i've been there, the horror of wondering "what the hell did I say, or do??" it will pass .. you have been thru so much in a short time.
And NOBODY wants to take your kids away from you .... the authorities want to do anything and everything to keep families together. that is really the truth. i'm just wondering, do you think you could benefit from antidepressants? It really saved me in so many ways. just a thought .. hugs bella from across the big pond :l :l

[WA]

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Bella,please dont worry no one is going to take your kids...i will be here all day tomorrow if you need to chat pm me ok
love Jacqui xxx

[greeneyes]

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Oh Bella. Need new friends. That was not a kind thing for them to say in public. You can do this. We know the routine. Take your children for a walk around the block. Drink healthy beverages ( sorry I listened to the CD last night). One of my fears is that I will have to replace my friends. I don't know if I can hang with them while I'm trying to go AF. Well, yes I do. I cannot. Big step for me. Waaahhh.

[southernbelle47]

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I totally agree with Greeneyes...except I would say that these people ARE NOT your friends.

Lean on us and slowly start to look for friends there that care about you.
They will come...just be patient.
My best friends have been people that I've had healthy things in common with. Like other mom's and people at my kids schools and also church activities. My neighbors have been a rich source of friends. In my lifetime(I'm old)...I've had maybe 3-4 lasting friendships. Drinking has never been a part of these relationships.
Also....maybe change the places you and family go out to.
Family type resturants abound .
Remember....your cared about and you are never alone in this.
:l Nancy

[Not Happy Hour-Happy Life]

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Bella~ if your wonderful, supporting friends reinforced your commitment to sobriety and to your children, then I guess that they are worth keeping, right?

WRONG.
#1. If I was at a bar with "friends", and I was obviously SMASHED... my TRUE FRIENDS would not have left me alone.
#2. If my "friends" heard me looking for Coke, my TRUE FRIENDS would have wrapped their arms through mine, and we would have skipped out of the pub together, singing, just like Dorothy, the Scarecrow, Lion, and the Tinman, "We are OFF to see the wizard!"
#3. If my "friends" heard me "joking" about killing myself, they would have personally escorted me home and handed me off to my husband~ making SURE that he knew how loopy I was.

FRIENDS? Nope. :no: When I first read your post, I wondered WHY you were left alone, obviously drunk and out of your mind, and left in the care of a taxi driver? Where I live, it wouldn't have surprised me to hear a tragic conclusion to your story, where the taxi driver "took advantage" of a drunk woman- it's happened here, and I suppose it could happen in the UK too? Your taxi driver is worth finding, just to express your gratitude that he was caring when all of your "friends" went home. He really was a Guardian Angel.

You've learned your lesson. The past is done. Trash those "friends". :nutso:

The future? Bella, the future holds two wonderful little babies and a wonderful husband. They love you unconditionally, and want to spend their days with YOU, Bella. :heart: Your kids have NO doubts in their hearts or in their minds that Mummy can take care of them. I know you can, too.

Much love,

[Shikakai]

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Let me get this straight: these people talked to you about the other night in FRONT of your children? If so, they should be ashamed.

You stay strong, Bella. I don't know if you are on supps. or medications, but most people here swear by them. Get some immediately if you aren't already on them.

Forget those people. You are on your way to a brand new life, alcohol free. Lucky for those who think you were so "funny" the other night, when they act outrageously stupid due to their alcoholism, you won't bring it up.

[Cinders]

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Bella,

You definitely need new friends. Truly.

And also read my new signature. It is something we MUST do if we are going to heal.

Last time I flew home in first class I remember furtively looking around to see if anyone there was staring at me because of my drunken adventure on one flight getting me kicked off the plane. i.e. Does someone here remember?

Then I realized "Hey, so what. I'm sober now "

Love,
Cindi

[Shikakai]

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db2fromala;269961 wrote: Bella,

You definitely need new friends. Truly.

And also read my new signature. It is something we MUST do if we are going to heal.

Last time I flew home in first class I remember furtively looking around to see if anyone there was staring at me because of my drunken adventure on one flight getting me kicked off the plane. i.e. Does someone here remember?

Then I realized "Hey, so what. I'm sober now "

Love,
Cindi

Okay! Today! I just wonder were they taunting Bella; making fun of her? Whatever the situation to do so in front of her kids is egregious.

Some friends!

Yes, you are sober, Cindi, and that's all that matters... we've made fools out of ourselves but not anymore, and what about people who make fools out of themselves and they aren't under the influence? What's their explanation?

*Tongue* at them