Okay, so I've been on the program for a little over a month now. Up to 150mgs of Topa and have been pretty much sober most of the month, except for a couple of slips - although those were mainly during the first two weeks as I was adjusting. As of now, I can order a glass of wine with dinner and not even finish it, without even thinking about it.
Sooooo now that I have sobering thoughts (who would've thunk it?), I"ve been thinking about some of the baggage I've been carrying around (seems alcohol has numbed me from the "ball and chain" effects of this stuff"). So, here is my list of things that are out, things that are new, and things that I will keep...:
OUT:
1. Non-supportive boyfriend - too long of a discussion for this thread
2. Excessive body fat
3. Binging and hangovers
4. Guilt
5. Excuses and Procrastination
6. Excessive debt (seems the guilt has led me to spend more than I normally would...)
7. Living my life to please others
IN
1. New town, less expensive - without those AL triggers that seem to be everywhere
2. Outdoor sports again - travel!
3. AF circle of friends - don't know how to do this yet
4. Start my Masters Degree Program (OMG - time to STUDY - WOW!)
5. Taking responsibility for my actions
6. Counseling - can't do this alone...
KEEPERS:
1. My 2 Dogs:h
2. Family, boozers - but, I can't choose my family, will have to set boundaries with them
3. 3 Friends - again, boozers, but they all live far away so phone conversations are OK
4. Job - if they will have me....
Now - this will not happen all at once, but these are my long term goals - kind of came to me last night and I had to write them down. Thanks for listening. Love you guys.:l Peace.
Sooooo now that I have sobering thoughts (who would've thunk it?), I"ve been thinking about some of the baggage I've been carrying around (seems alcohol has numbed me from the "ball and chain" effects of this stuff"). So, here is my list of things that are out, things that are new, and things that I will keep...:
OUT:
1. Non-supportive boyfriend - too long of a discussion for this thread
2. Excessive body fat
3. Binging and hangovers
4. Guilt
5. Excuses and Procrastination
6. Excessive debt (seems the guilt has led me to spend more than I normally would...)
7. Living my life to please others
IN
1. New town, less expensive - without those AL triggers that seem to be everywhere
2. Outdoor sports again - travel!
3. AF circle of friends - don't know how to do this yet
4. Start my Masters Degree Program (OMG - time to STUDY - WOW!)
5. Taking responsibility for my actions
6. Counseling - can't do this alone...
KEEPERS:
1. My 2 Dogs:h
2. Family, boozers - but, I can't choose my family, will have to set boundaries with them
3. 3 Friends - again, boozers, but they all live far away so phone conversations are OK
4. Job - if they will have me....
Now - this will not happen all at once, but these are my long term goals - kind of came to me last night and I had to write them down. Thanks for listening. Love you guys.:l Peace.
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