Some thoughts I put to paper...

[Hovercat]

I thought I'd share this with you....

Last crisis I had with drinking (early 2005) was when my then fiance (now husband) walked out on me and gave me an ultamatum....get sorted or I go!
I started a...diary of sorts to try and get me to see what damage drinking had done to me. It petered out a bit but certainly made me think hard about what I was doing.
I did 18 months AF until I thought I could handle Mods...which I couldn't!! :upset:
Anyway, since starting anew I dug it out and thought it'd be interesting to share it with you lot.

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Of particular interest (to me anyway) is this affirmation my SO tried to get me to sign- I was too pissed to write my own name. :egad:



I think some of the stuff in there is quite shocking, especially the money I spent and the calories I consumed, and that was just vodka!!

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[Guest]

Some thoughts I put to paper...

This makes me want to cry!!! all the time and things lost to the bottle. Unbelievable!

[meditation mama]

Some thoughts I put to paper...

Hey, Hover!

Thank you for sharing your blog.. that was very brave and thought provoking. It is amazing, isn't it all. When we look back...

I wish you the best of luck. You did it for 18 months, you can do it again. You bring yoru drinking to the surface, a place you can deal with it. That is good. Keep putting your thoughts out there!

I also tried the MOD scene.. no way. I used to thought I wanted that more than anything, I was wrong. I want to live and enjoy life. I want clarity. I want to feel all my feelings, good or bad. This is now what i want more than anything. That and an amazing cup of coffee daily..

Namaste,

MM

[bald headed old guy]

Some thoughts I put to paper...

Hovercat,
You have an incredible amount of courage to put out here what so many of us only partially admit to ourselves! I for one am too ashamed of my behaviour when drinking to put it out for everyone to read! Thank you very much for sharing!
Every time I find out another's experience with ALice and how they are handling the addiction/withdrawal/recovery, it gives me a little more strength to go on. Thanks again!
BHOG