Cindi please stay with us!!!

[myra]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Both Cindi and Mags are amazing people and I admire both of them greatly. Both of you have been very kind to me and very inspiring. I have depended on both of you as you offer such helpful feedback.

You are indeed the heart of MWO.

[Victory]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Best to stay girl

Hi db2, just putting my two cents worth in the hat. Have been in chat with you and loved your input. When we click on the MWO page it says ?our community? and I love that. Communities help each other out, if you want or need help support then best to stay girl. Will respect your choice either way, but will miss you if you leave. :h :h :h

[bootcampbarbie]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

cindi, sometimes you have to do what you have to do. but i don't know where you are going to go. hummm where does one go??? pondering that thought. depression is tough and well you have a great counselor. i also highly recommend lenair when you are able give them a call. anyone from mwo also as a welcome from them receives $200 off of their usual fee. and i also know that we are each in charge of ourselves as mags would say. and well, road trips. i'm just concerned i suppose i want to make sure that you are really really taking good care of you on the road... but this is your path and your going to have to walk it the way you choose to walk it. and i'm going to respect that. because it is your choice. i chose mine and well, i am certainly no victim of myself. lol cuz well how could i be it was afterall me making the choices.... you've earned some really nice brownie points along the way that folks here gave you phone numbers. and honestly if you are really depressed though you need to check in as well with your counselor and that's important. boots sending you love

[tea]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi and Mags, big hugs to you both. Nothing to add that hasn't been said, just to reiterate that MWO has helped me sooo much it couldn't be put in words if I tried, when I couldn't get online for a few months I missed you all every day and yes it messed with my drinking brain cell, the support and humour here is higher than any mountain and I especially love that we are all at different stages of climbing.....

Lxx

[Guest]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi, darling this is what I get for never being over in general anymore. I must get reconnected. Cindi, we are southern girls tough on the outside so tender within. Mags is a Yankee( I say that in no condesending way Mags) what I mean mags is a straight shooter, and somethimes it hurts like hell, but we need to hear it. Cindi If I may, can I phone you today? Just pm me if OK. Cindi, I love you and I know you are alot harder on yourself than anyone else could be. Just knowed your loved and cared about by many!
Hugs
mar

[Cinders]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Mags - I love you and you did not hurt my Heart!!

Oh, my friends, how you have all made me feel so loved and so much better!!

Please, understand, Mags did not hurt my feelings at all. I "got" what she was trying to tell me. That I just "gotta do it." Or I am going to continue to go down and go down bad. She is a dear, dear friend and I felt nothing but love and concern from her.

My response was due to what I have been going through with Adrienne, with what my mom said, with ending up drunk and broken glass around me (which btw was 11 days ago now, so sober 11 days!!) and what Mags said. I am scared, I am depressed, I am freaked out.

I have been going through this off and on for two years now. Blacking out, sobering up, drinking, getting sick, watching my daughter go down, watching myself go down, hurting family, getting weaker and weaker, and watching it spiral. I truly thought rehab and MWO and trying, trying, trying would work but then that f@ing little demon in my head wins.

I feel like such a failure and I am so afraid that demon will come back and I will let him win again. I am living in fear, worry, and now depression.

I do not know why I thought leaving MWO would be the right thing to do other than I am tired of showing others my weakness.

Apparently, none here care about my weakness, they just care about me.

So, now, instead of crying from sadness and uselessness, I am crying with gratefulness.

:h
Cindi

[bald headed old guy]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi,
Please don't go away! You have been a part of my "family" since I joined here, and even with all of the items you are dealing with, you took time out to care about me, my problems, and talked me out of stupid things! And I would miss you very much! You know we all fight depression as we shrug AL (or ALice) out of our lives. And no, girl, it is not easy! But DAMN! You can do this..please!
BHOG

[Determinatrix]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi - friend help each other. That is just the way it works.
I have shared this poem before, and want to share it with you.

help me up
my friend.
dust me off.
feed me warmth.
you are comfort.
let me lean on you
until I can stand
alone.
I will stand a little taller,
and you will be
proud
to have a friend
such as me.
-Peter McWilliams

:h Dx

[Not Happy Hour-Happy Life]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi~
Here is a virtual hug :l and I love you. :loveyou:
When I've been challenged, I've thought of everyone here, and how I want to succeed~ yes, for me and my family, but also for everyone here. A wonderful peer pressure....

I'm so glad you are staying. Much love. :heart:

[Guest]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi,
If we all left every time we failed there would be no one here. You can do this! It is ahrd as hell and depressing. I have struggled too, as you know. But, TOGETHER we can do this.

[lucky 2.0]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Glad to see you still here db!
xo

[happydog]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

cindi,
I'm also glad to see you are around...hope you stay with us.....you mean a lot to us.
like you said we care about you.:h

Love
Teardrop.x

[Mags]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Cindi please don't use the word weakness. You are not weak. None of us here are weak. You are bravely and courageously confronting your problem. You are winning a few battles and losing a few. But you are always hopping right back in there to do more battle. That, my lady, is courage, not weakness.

No, you are not weak, you are tired. That is understandable.

11 days is great. On to 12. We're all here with you.

[SKendall]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

Glad you are still with us Cinci.



:l

[MDBiker]

Cindi please stay with us!!!

:huggy
Love you.
It's not you, it is the sickness.
It will get better, but NEVER give up.
:huggy

bear