See AFM, thus far (about an hr. and half now lol) I have kept my part of the bargain (almost :H ) and "embraced" my inhalator on this, our joint quit date.
Am off to a slippery start........had intended to bin any fags I had left when I went to bed last night, only........I kept the single fag I had left for this morning.........just in case, you understand..........LMAO.........I "happily" puffed away on it with my first cuppa.
But, am still at home and haven`t made my usual mad dash to the shop when out of fags. With my second cuppa of the morning, (the quitting caffeine will have to go onto hold temporarily......I`m no Superwoman lol) I dared to try puffing on the inhalator.
Well, what an experience the inhalator has been. First off, it has shown me just how strongly addicted I am to the actual physical act of smoking........I was a little annoyed that I did not find a rush of smoke as I inhaled........inhaling from the inhalator is nothing like inhaling from a full-blown fag.......it`s kinda like "suck it and see" and..........I`m still waiting. lol Wait.........there`s worse to come........when I exhaled, I automatically did so with the force I would use when smoking a fag........it was like I was expecting to see the smoke belching from my mouth, which didn`t happen of course.
So my brain is certainly aware that the inhalator is indeed an inhalator and not a fag. However, whilst I am fully aware it`s not a "real fag", I do think it took the edge off the craving, which the patch just didn`t do for me..........I remain open minded at this early stage.
I can`t predict how I`ll fare with this as the day progresses. I only know that I really do want to quit smoking, yet I`m not overly confident in my ability to do so. I have to hang tight........I want to beat this filthy habit. For me personally, quitting smoking is going to be 10 times as difficult as I found quitting drinking.........I am the most crabbit person in the entire Universe if out of fags, yet here I sit..........DELIBERATELY out of fags.
Please, please, please, please,please..........someone tell me that the inhalator is a godsend and that I can indeed get through this day without a cigarette. I affectionately call my fags my "little bit of sanity". Am wondering.........will they lock me up now that I don`t have any??? :H
Why oh why did I ever think it looked cool to smoke?..........stupid or what???!!!
Oh well.........on to cuppa no. 3 and another nicotine hit. "Hit"..........it`s more like a slap in the face ha ha ha ha ha
Hmmmm..........have hint of a sense of humour this morning........perhaps this won`t be too insufferable after all..............
Starlight Impress x
P.S.........the inhalator does look rather like a mini tampon applicator........sooooooooo not cool to be sticking in my face in public ha ha ha ha ha
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