Now that I have a decent number of AF days under my belt, I find that I'm increasingly becoming aware of the faulty logic we use when we give in to our cravings. In particular, I find that, although still plagued by cravings, I can't for the life of me comprehend how I ever found my reasons for drinking convincing. For example, this morning I had a HUGE craving for wine, and as nuts as it sounds, in the past it was a regular occurrence for me to relax with a bottle in the middle of the morning. I quickly was able to convince myself that I did not "deserve to drink" because I had been AF for nearly 3 weeks, but then a curious thing occurred. I had the stark realization that for some time it had seemed perfectly reasonable for me to buy and consume a bottle of wine at 10:30 in the friggin' morning! Most people are having their first coffee break at this time, and I'm considering having a drink!
I think that's one reason this addiction is so hard to beat. Drinking becomes such a central part of our lives that there isn't a situation fathomable in which the decision to drink seems inappropriate. I know when I took my first drink at age 14 I would've thought that someone hitting the sauce in the morning had a serious problem, yet now that scenario seems perfectly normal! There is simply no other way to describe this than manifest INSANITY! In any case, I'm happy that this morning I joined the ranks of the 10:30am coffee goers rather than waiting for the liquor store to open in the freezing morning snow.
I think that's one reason this addiction is so hard to beat. Drinking becomes such a central part of our lives that there isn't a situation fathomable in which the decision to drink seems inappropriate. I know when I took my first drink at age 14 I would've thought that someone hitting the sauce in the morning had a serious problem, yet now that scenario seems perfectly normal! There is simply no other way to describe this than manifest INSANITY! In any case, I'm happy that this morning I joined the ranks of the 10:30am coffee goers rather than waiting for the liquor store to open in the freezing morning snow.
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