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I have tried and stayed sober for up to 9 months in AA, sometimes I get this "be saved, join our way of life"kinda feeling from some of the groups I have been to........Stopped going for a while due to that feeling I got. (too pushy sort of!?)
Anyway, just started back w/ an open mind instead of that attitude, got up the nerve(thanks to my 16 year old son of all things!) to go back to what was once my "home group", it was THE BEST FEELING I have had in a really LONG time...............a high way better than al ever gave me..................the LOVE in that room is overwhelming I was crying and teary eyed the entire hour................then got a hug and a "welcome back" from just about everyone there!!! We go out to eat and "fellowship" (they call it that, just hanging out basically) on Friday nights after the meeting..........
My son (probably why he really talked me into going on Tues when I was so nervous) LOVES to go out and socialize w/ all these really FUN people........my husband has even come w/ us a few times................
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to Friday night.......tomorrow!!! I KNOW I won't drink, and will have fun....
I feel like I have been reborn by going back there...........
BUT I only am going to go to meetings for now, haven't gotten a sponsor again (don't feel like letting someone down again...........am a "chronic relapser") and I am just keeping that open mind that it may work, I hope it does!
Just my take on it, glad it is good right now!
Love and hugs,
MA
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