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[KateH1]

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Reenie,
7 months as a non-drinker is huge! You know you can live happily without alcohol. Lucy is so right, what is done is done. You already know what to do!

Welcome Back!
XXX KateH

[Thankful]

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Reenie, my heart just aches because you are in pain. I know I told you this before, but you really helped me my extremely tough Day 3. Your words have kept me sober since then. And the important thing is that you still inspire me.

You slipped. You admitted it. You learned from the experience. You are re-focused on your goal. If anything you are stronger, because you are not allowing yourself to be sucked back into the bottle.

Let the guilt go, my friend. Please find it in your heart to forgive yourself. Don't dwell on failure. Embrace the joy of almost 8 months AF.

You will survive and be victorious. I know you will!

Be good to yourself. You deserve it. I personally don't know where I'd be today without you.

All my love and respect,
Me
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[trixietrack]

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so sorry you are feeling awful reenie. I have to say that a lot resorts are geared to tempt people into getting drunk. you are very strong for not falling into temptation right away.

hope you feel better soon. that was just one day that's it.

love
Trix

[Reenie]

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Thanks again for your kind words and support everyone! I'm feeling better today and am optimistic about my future. All of you have told me to "let it go", forgive yourself, your human, move on". My husband, dad and brother, have said the same. My therapist of whom I had a scheduled appointment with last night didn't seem too easy forgive. It was she who said my the time between relapses have gotten better and that I really need to have a plan in place to prevent myself from relapsing again. I agree with her, but get the sense from her that one more relapse and I'm off to rehab. Well, I have to say, I'm 42 years old, and have fairly good head on my shoulders.... know one is hauling my ass to rehab any time soon. In a way, I'm getting tired of being shaped into, or pegged as this far off waste of a drunk that I'm not. Yes, I'm alcoholic.... I can't handle my liquor. Once it hits my bloodstream, I'm usually a major Gabber. On occassions, I can be snitty and a little beligerent. However, when I drank, I managed to have a life, keep a great job and overall function. Why is it that I had a slip after 7 months and a half and feel like a total screw up? All of you have been great. My immediate family has been great. My therapist is on my shit list right now.... Okay, enough!

We stayed at Club Vellas in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. The grounds, food, bars, restaurants, etc... were excellent. Our room was nice, but "dated". I like new, new, new! We did buy into the Mayan Resorts. We purchase what is called, Fractional Ownership". We bought the Grand Master Suite consisting of 2 beds, 2 baths w/ jacuzzi tubs, stainless steel appliances, granite counter tops, blah, blah... I'm a realtor, hence the description. I have total of 4 weeks. If anyone is interested in vacationing in PV, or any where else for that matter, I'll be happy to rent out our unit. (There goes my sales plug). Oh, while in PV, my husband and I canopied. That is when you are 80 to 90 ft. in the air zipping from tree to tree on a cable and pully. I hate heights, yet I managed to get through it. I did not drink that day, although I probably could have used one. It was scary propelling 80 feet off a platform in order to get back down to the ground.

[cowgal]

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reenie

I feel for you Reenie, had 9 months AF about 4 years ago, blew that when my dad died, have not had more than 3 months since..............we have to remember that the time we had is OURS! Nobody can take the way we felt, the sobriety, the things we learned, away from us.............get back in the saddle (which it looks like you have done since yesterday!)

Good for you not drinking your ENTIRE vacation, which, sorry to say, I usually do!!

Love you,:h:h:l

MA

[buckledown]

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glad to see you are feeling better and your strength is returning...be proud that you were honest and remember the truth will set you free...sounds like a great vacation except for the one day...be strong and remember we are here for you...blessings and hugs...buckle

[Accountable for Me]

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Thinking of you Reenie. You should be very proud of the AF time you did get. Going on vacation can be a huge trigger. I have no doubt you will take it as a learning experience and will kick butt again. I hope you feel better soon!

[Reenie]

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Would have been one year tomorrow had I not slipped while vacationing in Mexico and when slipping for the shear "heck of it". I can't believe its one year, with 2 slips. Not bad. I'm proud of myself and am surprised how quickly times flies by.

[KateH1]

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Reenie, Congratulations on pretty darn close to a year AF!!! The most important thing is that we work and learn to live without AL. So glad you were able to get right back on track after slipping!! We never give up!!

XXX Kate

[brittzak]

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Oh Reenie, don't beat yourself up...just start anew. I had 8 months last year and went bonkers. I know that guilty feeling. I was so mad at myself I got mad at everyone.....just start over honey. you know what to do.

[wonderworld]

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So glad you posted that Reenie. I remember like it was yesterday when you got back from Mexico. I think you have so much integrity and courage - then, and now. You're awesome. And I say way to go on your positive perspective. Mental health gold star!

Much love, Dr. wondernut xox

[lucky 2.0]

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So good to see you reenie and glad to know you are doing so well!

[Accountable for Me]

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Reenie you are doing very well!!!! 2 slips in a year is awesome!!

I slipped after several months last year; and it seems every 2-3 months I have a slip now, which is NOT good for me. I am a work in progress just as everyone here.

Way to go. You should be very proud of yourself.

[toughintexas]

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Reenie, I think you are awesome, you inspire me too! I think that scolding thing, is overrated, done to ourselves, by ourselves, and by others.... Not long ago I had a big 'ol slip myself, whew....it hurt, physically, mentally and emotionally...but I'd done so good before it, much, much better....my hubby was scared at the time, but the next day, or maybe the second day..lol..he was like..."you made a mistake, everyone makes them, do you want to just keep beating yourself up, move on!".... We are too OCD about this sometimes I think, we are only human, we have to just keep on keeping on..I think the more we obsess over it, the more we dwell on it, the worse the temptation is....like "you can't have this"...I guess I've always been so hard-headed, that I said..."oh yes I can!"... Just gotta get over it! Glad you feel better, we'll all be ok! It was vacation.....

[nancy]

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Hi Reenie

Sorry about your slip.

I just want to say.... Sounds like your therapist is a bit tough-love-ish.

It's not your therapist's life, it's yours. And your family members have forgiven you for this.

Maybe your therapist thinks guilt will be motivational for you in keeping on the right path. I am sure for some guilt/tough love/kick in the ass is motivational. But I also think a lot of alcoholics are already down on themselves enough. You had a choice to drink on vacation and you said yes even though all your experience was telling you that it was a bad idea. And true to your experience, it made you feel bad and out of control once again. Hopefully, next time your choice will be different. Sounds like you had a great time before the night of drinking.

But it is your life and your choice.