tired of hiding

[greeneyes]

I have a friend who does energy work. Keeps asking me when are going to get together? I don't return calls, I'm so ashamed. I know she will know. She worked on me once and said "what's up with your liver? You need to quit partying." And I escalated. And avoided her. Well.... I just left her a message telling her why I haven't returned her calls. And cried in the process. Damn I seem to cry whenever I talk about my problem. It's so shameful for me. But maybe this is a big step for me to fess up. I hope she will like me even though I can't seem to get on me feet just yet and hide from everyone. I miss my friends. AL told me I didn't need them. Arsehole.

[4theboyz]

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GE, Your body is telling you something it may be Time to listen. Time to let go of AL and Time to live.

[trixietrack]

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I think you are making progress. it is painful to let go

[dexterhead]

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yes, you are, but quit lurking, bad girl. E-slap! Thwack! :H

[hippie37]

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I think there are so many emotions and states of mind we go through when we give up alcohol that to tackle them all head on would leave us heading straight back for the 'bottle'. My drinking was always out in the open though and I never had to 'out' myself if you like as it was common knowledge with friends and family. I think that's why I had no problem in calling myself an alcoholic in the beginning. It's obviously a very different situation for yourself green as you are still having to deal with this. The biggest hurdle I found was admitting it to myself!!!. Everyone else knew apart from me!!! I didn't care what other's thought about my drinking at ALL. I think you'll be very surprised at the reaction you get though from your friend. Real friends will be there for you and not judge you and if they're not willing to do that then I'd personally find it hard to call them my friend at all. I found out who my real friends where if I'm honest when I gave up drinking for good. I may not see as much of 'em as I used to but that is a sacrifice I have had to make for my own sobriety and one I will continue to do until I'm comfortable enough to be around the 'scene' again.
And thumbs up on that one......alcohol is an a-hole!!!

Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

[greeneyes]

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She called me and was incrediibly supportive. Let's go to a movie, bowling, got to the park with the dogs... Proud of me for trying. Felt good. Reall good. Cried again.

[bald headed old guy]

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GE..
I hope you take her up on some of those ideas! It would be good for you! And since she allready knows, you will not have to hide anything!
BHOG

[KateH1]

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Green,

Way to go!

The Universe is showing you the way out of this.........really! Go for it!!! You might just find this way much easier than all the fear that you have been dwelling on!

xxKateH

[greeneyes]

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Kate, you are right. I have been dwelling on fear. Thanks for pointing that out. I need to switch fear to hope. And action.

[YoungAtHeart]

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I think you already are switching from fear to hope, Greenie.

:l:l

[tlrgs]

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greeneyes ..so proud of you .you go girl

[dexterhead]

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Hi GreenBeanie:! you are doing well with positive steps my friend.

[hulagirl]

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Hey Green Eyes, If some one invites you to spend time with them, to go for a walk, to go bowling, go to a movie. . . do you know how special that is?

[Noelle]

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Hula, you're right! Good thought!

[MyHeartIsDrenchedInWine]

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Greeneyes, you are surrounded by understanding friends, what a blessing!