True test of my intestinal fortitude....

[meditation mama]

Boy, oh boy.. this weekend has been it for me. I am in the middle of moving out of my house, the one I shared with my STBX (soon to be ex). It has been emotional to say the least. I am doing this on my own, without help. I am packing on my own, moving load by load. I have gone through moments of panic, sadness, feeling absolutely overwhelmed.. and then I just go on. I take a moment, breath, take a break if I need it and go on. On to the next task. Bit by bit it is getting done.

And I am doing this without drinking. I can barely believe it. Last night I had to think hard about it. I was at the other place getting ready to come to my old place - the place that is in total chaos, and would have loved to check out with a drink - the old me anyway. So I planned what I would do when I got home.. make popcorn and plug in a movie. I had to plan because I know I am vulnerable right now.

So it is onward and upward. One moment at a time right now... that is what I can do. I will not drink over this. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I know it is not an oncoming train! It is truly light and I am blessed.

MM

[Guest]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

Good, I MEAN GREAT JOB!!! I am very proud for you as I know how good it feels today to have made it through last night. Day to day sweetie, just day to day. I can imagine moving is hard and without help too. But, you are doing it.

[greeneyes]

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MM... I aspire to be that strong. YOU are the light at the end of my tunnel. :h

[meditation mama]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

Can I just tell you how much I love my avatar!

I am sure I will change it soon, but for now it stays.

It is exactly how I feel right now and it makes me laugh everytime I take a moment to really look at it.

It's the little things in life, isn't it?

[Guest]

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yes it is, the little things matter most.....

[Thankful]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

MM, I am so proud of you. I know how hard you've been struggling. I have moved several times in my life. It's hard, but so exciting to think of the new.

You are a very strong woman! You give so much. When this is done, you are going to sit back and enjoy all your hard work. You'll get there sooner than you think. But only if you stay sober. And I have absolute faith that you will. You deserve it. You don't desarve to sabatage yourself.

Only happy memories in that new AF home for you and Princess!!

Love, Me
:l

[dexterhead]

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Oh MM! first, yes I love your avatar. Second, moving is one of my own personal hells. I just moved again in August and it nearly finished me off. I've had to move several times in the last few years due to marital meltdown, and it is always enough to reduce me to a quivering pile of jelly. And you are facing it with cajones!! You are strong and amazing!!!:h:h

[keeta]

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Great job staying strong, MM.

When the worst of the *moving* is over, then comes the fun of making a house a home!

I too love your avatar.
Stay strong, you are doing so well!

love and hugs,
K

[KateH1]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

Hi MM.....you are simply remarkable! I love the way you kick the Beast to the curb each time he raises his ugly head!!

I love your avatar too! I also respect you so much for not constantly having the need to degrade your ex here. Never once have I seen you go into "victim mode".......clearly, you are working on yourself and taking care of business!!!! Aplause! Aplause! Aplause!

Much Love.
XXKateH

[YoungAtHeart]

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Well done, MM. Moving out of the marital home without help took a lot of courage and strength.

XX

[tlrgs]

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hi there mm ..you sound so strong keep up .stay postive

[memarcie]

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Great job MM!! You are an inspiration.

I also love the avatar!

[MyHeartIsDrenchedInWine]

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Good for you!!!!!!

[Hannah]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

HiYa MM, from the MIA girl.....life has been a little hectic lately...

Whoa, you are doing well.....keep it up....so understand the moving "hell", and so much harder when you are running solo....proud of you, girl....

You have shown how you can do this, good on you! Still up for a new challenge? Coming soon.....

[Cinders]

True test of my intestinal fortitude....

MM,

Very proud of you for handling all this without AL as any crutch.

I am a bit worried about your back, though, I recall it was really giving you problems this fall. Please be careful. :l

Love,
Cindi