Pissed that hubby does not go to nursing home with me for daddy's b-day. Shamefully I have a hit of voddy. Punishing who? Don't spank me for having it. Remember the therapist's advice? I know.. I'm not trying to use it as an excuse. The nursing home really gets to me as well as the loss of my hero. So I have these helium balloons in my 2 seater car and I can't friggin' see on the interstate to change lanes and have to swat them around. Thank god I didn't bring doggie. I have that moment of realization of what an idiot I am to have had a swig and do this. And am horrified. Now this would not have been an issue a month ago; no horror, just irritation. Daddy looks at me and says "How long have you been chewing that gum?" I never chewed gum before I started trying to mask the smell. I smiled and said about a year and a half, why? He just smiles and said, Just wondering. His shining star dimmed, but then brightened. Yet another brick in the yellow road. Thanks for listening.
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Greeneyes,
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Green -
My Daddy is also my hero ... they hold a special place in our hearts. Not gonna spank you for the hit of voddy ... but challenge you to turn the tables and share the chance to return in the "hero" status for your Father.
Maybe you need to telfon-coat your big girl pants? Treat them as your "warrior duds."
Be careful of those around you ... and take care of yourself.
- MasqCourage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karl Barth
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Well the point is (lame as it may sound) is that today, I was horriied at my behavior, whereas in the not too recent past, I wouldn't have even given it a thought. So I like to consider it progress.
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even small steps are progress!!!! Any amount of progress is success.....Comment
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I would definitely consider it progress, Green !
We all know that AL has no freakin conscience! The fact that you were aware and frustrated made you cognizant of the choice and ramifications. It is a great start, Hun.
Love you.
-MasqCourage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karl Barth
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Green, This was a huge step!!! To realize for yourself that drinking is not for you! Keep on going, you are making great progress!!
XXKateHA Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes~Cinderella
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good for u Ms. Green bean. I know how you were dreading that visit.
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Sometimes slipping is part of making a change in our lives.:flower: Change a life; make someone feel important. ................. ........................ ..................... ........................ ................. ....... sigpicComment
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