Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

[Shikakai]

It's been hectic, as usual...

Stress levels are high and if I can just get through today, I can rest tomorrow; detox and start again with a fresh slate.

Sick of my mother; sick of my sister and her rotten child; sick of life; sick of drinking; sick of people never understanding where I'm coming from; sick of being sick.

Have to get through today, though. Was at work yesterday in a total FOG! I still don't know how people DON'T know that I be zonked!

And on top of it, there is a bar downstairs right underneath the office... yea, I paid them a visit too yesterday, but that's not becoming a habit.

So who wants to go AF with me after at least two weeks of binging?

[Cinders]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Shik,

Me.

Love,
Cindi

[Shikakai]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Okay, thanks, Cindi...

So tonight, at midnight, no more drinking...

I'm going to grab a couple of VMs this morning so I can "get through the day" and once I get home and chow down on some BBQ ribs, I'm through with drinking and will try and remain AF as long as possible.

This garbage ends NOW! I'm sick of living in filth.

I'm glad you're with me. I'm going to PM you on Sunday just to check in, or you can check in with me here.

[Thankful]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

My heart goes out to you both. I pray you find you way out. I'm glad you have each other on this next journey.

Good luck. Remember, we are all here.

Love, Me
:l

[KateH1]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Hey Shik,
I hope that you will comitt to going AF......maybe a goal like 10 days will help. I know how down you get when you don't do 30 days. Also start focusing on positive things. It helps....honest! Best wishes to you.

Cindi,
Are you OK? Talk to us........what is going on? Remember, we are all in this together!

XXKateH

[poohbear]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

hey there how are you doing? I will go AF with you - I really really need someone to do this with - someone that i can check in with on a daily basis. I drank last night and had to come into work this morning ugh, but yea I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and it has to stop sometime why not now??

[Shikakai]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

poohbear;287041 wrote: hey there how are you doing? I will go AF with you - I really really need someone to do this with - someone that i can check in with on a daily basis. I drank last night and had to come into work this morning ugh, but yea I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and it has to stop sometime why not now??

I hate the feeling that I may not be able to get this out of my system.

How on earth did I fall so far? I'm still worrying about my "situation". Yea, that does a lot of good, huh?

Yea, I had ONE drink last night, Pooh, and a fantastic dinner from Black Angus. Slept like a log until about 8:00 a.m. and then cleaned the apartment.

It's almost 12 p.m. here in Cali, so I'm planning on hitting up an AA meeting.

Thanks for joining the "fight" today. I hope Cindi checks in as well, but I'll PM her tomorrow and see how she did.

I'm feeling pretty "weak" right now, but I'm trying to stay focused.

After reading Mike's story... DAMN!

Thanks for all the well wishes... if I can just get through today... the little voice is already telling me that no one starts AF-ing on a Saturday. Wait until tomorrow and start the week off right...

[poohbear]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

You can do this today Shik just hang on for a little while and this too shall pass. An AA meeting sounds like a good idea I have been toying with the idea but I know its going to be so freaking hard to walk back through those doors with everyone automatically knowing the reason I havent been in awhile. I mean why does one stop going to meetings? Usually because they went back out, but I just cant do this anymore so I am surrendering - holding out my white flag. Also you can go AF today dont let the fact that its a weekend stop that because we will always come up with one reason or another to drink today and I will stop tomorrow - does that make sense? Anyway I am going to make it today as me and my husband are going to his mothers house later and she is going to start teaching me how to crochet - maybe if I have something to do to keep my hands busy might help.

Talk to u later hun

[Cinders]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Shik and Pooh,

I am sober today and will remain so. I have all three grandkids here with me today.

I am determined to be AF all week. My psych appt is Friday.

We can do this!

Love,
Cindi

[Determinator]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Shikakai, I'm with you too! don't over analyze at this point...try to be good to yourself. we have the rest of our lives to figure this out. Be careful tapering down on the booze...it's easy to end up on another bender (at least it is for me), but do what you gotta do. XXXXX

[dexterhead]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Hi Shika! Look, you are a cute puppy now! Avatar changes rattle me, but , I do like puppies a lot .
Hey sweetie, have been thinking of you. And Shika, Pooh, Cindi, damn it, we are going to beat this stupid thing :b&d::bat . Oh yes we will!!!

[Cinders]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Shik, Pooh, Dex and Det,

Checking in.

How are you all doing tonight?

I made it sober today even though I actually broke down and started crying at 3:00 this afternoon.

I just said, "Okay, cry. This, too, shall pass and it did."

End of day two sober for me.

Love and strength,
Cindi

[poohbear]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

I made it through yesterday - the start of day 3 for me today, this is where it usually gets hard for me but I am determined not to pick up that drink. I just have to keep thinking of it as an allergy or something. I don't drink milk cause it makes me sick - welp AL does the same. Good luck to you and will check back in this evening after work. Shik are you doing ok?

[Cinders]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

Pooh!! Start of Day 3 for me, too.

I am not so much nervous or scared as anxious.

I absolutely will not drink today!! ABsolutely!!

I don't care how anxious, nervous, mad, angry, sad I get.

We will do this.

Love,
Cindi

[poohbear]

Thinking of starting AF again tomorrow... anyone with me?

I got this in an email when I got to work this morning and wanted to share I thought it was fitting. It wasn't JUST sent to me thank goodness :-)


HAPPY MONDAY!!!
I got this quote in an email today, so I decided to share.


"Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk.
That will teach you to keep your mouth shut."
-Ernest Hemingway