hi there...me myself and i

[tlrgs]

wow what am i doing .i ask myself am i being lazy because i am taking more time to myself to think of ways to better myself. yes i have work but i dont feel like doing it yet .why ami feeling this way .at times i am so tired.and at times iam so happy i feel no pain.and i know there is one thing that is always on my mind .and thats not al .its my boys. its like i feel so lonely for them . i wish i could speed time up and see what the future has for me and them . and the saying goes only time will tell. my life is easier now .that am not drinking. but it feels like alot is missing. i find myself reading so much here at mwo and it is all sounding the same.is it posslble to over think things. i go to AA meeting and there too.i feel like i am getting tired of the same thing deffrent day.but there is one thing i can say. it has help me in so many ways being here at mwo . and i started this mission o my own .when i was lost and everyone left me. i was the one that found my way out of the hell i put on myself.and still today i get signs that everything will be alright.when i think of that day when i woke up to see myself laying there. i relive it every time. and then i think of my first aa meeting when i got the book . 12 steps and 12 traditions.and what i read was everything i was already doing and alpying to my life.and please dont get me the wrong way. iam doing great .i just have to write my feeling down .and this is my way out and how i work things out for myself.and i do love my life.my girlfriend is doing great she has a doctors app thursday and we will find out . if she is going to have more surgery.and if what they found is cansor or what they are going to do.i just praying for the best. that all i ask for and to those who know about the pepper plant. it is still alive i have 8 more baby and it still growing ..so for now thankx for letting me share and everyone please have a great day and enjoy the life you have

[Janice]

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...you are certainly not being lazy....not drinking anymore is allowing you to think deeply about things and whats most important in your life right now....allowing you to feel emotions you probably forgot you ever had. You are just reaping the benefit of your sobriety.......good luck on Thursday, hope everything goes well.....oh, and keep on thinking!! Janicexxx

[Noelle]

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I don't know tirgs. Maybe you're over-thinking some of the time? Too much of anything isn't good. But keep writing! I hope your girlfriend hears good news on Thursday.

No, I haven't heard about your pepper plant, but if has 8 more babies on it, you must be doing something right! :H

[tlrgs]

hi there...me myself and i

i got to say this .i always hate watching the news and by me being here at mwo i learn something new everyday.and yeah alot of the stories sound the same. but in so many ways they are all diffrent.

[Ripple]

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All will be okay T...things take time to iron out ya know. I'm here for you and will listen. Remember the real ones who care are the ones who return a post of caring words. Good things are coming your way soon, you will see, give it some more time, okay? you take care and will do some more burning when i get some energy.

toodles..:h
luv ripple...

[tlrgs]

hi there...me myself and i

well this is cazy now i am laughing in my sleep what does that mean. well to day is beautiful here in florida ..i thnk i need to go out and do some work around the yard . yes get off my ass and do something. no i dont want to. ok get off this damn computer now . there is life out there.weeeee lets go ..see ya and remember you are the only one that can do any and everthing to stop drinking. oh my god i am addicted to this site ..

[livingfree]

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Thinkin ...

Hey Tlrgs - I have heard that people with addictive personalities "think to much" - I do the same thing. But I haven't figured out how to stop it. So when we learn how to stop that "to much thinking" we'll post it here! I'm addicted to this site too - I'm going to have to un addict too - I have to get on with life soon .... Wish I was in Fla. - I'm heading there in 2 weeks!! Ya hoo - Sarasota here I come!!
Liv

[Ripple]

hi there...me myself and i

yup, we have thinking disease, time to chuck the puter into the creamatory! we is addicted! BOO-HISS! :H

[Croft]

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I completely understand this feeling. Sometimes I walk around the house, 100% sober and just let my mind wonder to places of questioning. What am I doing? Should I be doing more? Do I really remember everything that happened today or is it dreamy and hazy? I wasn't drinking, but sometimes the haze is still there clouding up my vision. When I oversleep I still feel guilty. Is it leftover guilt from sleeping off hangovers? Or I am trying to make up for lost time? Should I be doing more? After all I am free from the bottle, I better get up and do something. Is it enough?

Sometimes I think that I lived under the haze for so long that it may take some time to remember what normal life is like. Is it ok to sit and rest for a bit? What do all the sober people live like anyway?

These thoughts haunt me occasionly. Sounds like they haunt you too tlrgs. Nice to know that I am not a looney. Or at least not a lonely looney!

Croft