my life could and will get better.i have decide to start doing alot more for me . theres is nothing else i can do for my kids untill they grow in their hearts. and learn to live and love me for who i am . and in so many ways they are waiting for me to screw up and i am not going to let that happen again and yeah i know i over think things and there is a reason behide all of the thinking . is to try to work on the ways i can better myself not for them anymore and that has been going on . i really had to take a good look at myself and i was trying more to impress them by not drink and show them how many day i have been af . and why. they are just waiting. but on the brighter side of life .i went and did what i want to do . yeah money is tight. and i really havent been working that much.because i have been taking care of my gf . but i said to hell with it and do something that i have wanted for a long time and alots a ways to make more money in the long run. is to build something for me to work in and to keep me busy.
i have so many projects. i have been thinking about and people that need to have thing made and hell i have so many tools just sitting in my shed just collecting dust.or just waiting for the next job to be used.and the good thing about florida it never that cold not to be able to work out doors.so all i need is a roof leave the side open and then am good to go . so i pick up the material to start building it and got most of the rafters up and the it started rainning so i will finish it tomorrow. but anyway things are looking better and my gf had her app on thursday and they didnt find anything wrong on the mri and so the next step is to have a petscan and this scan looks for any cancer anywhere in the body .
so for now thankx for listening:wave::rockband:
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