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[Heavenly]

Not so cured . . . fell last night.

Pat yourself on the back TOH ... you have made it through 73 days ... I have read loads of posts here and read about moderating too, hoping against hope I could do it.

I wanted to try but I was too scared, I had one glass of champagne on New Years Eve , thankfully the Kudzu I bought for that event worked and I haven't had more (basically because I daren't).

So I now consider myself an abstainer (with a once a year 'glass of champagne' and I mean one glass...even at ?30 + per bottle I would rather throw it away than become full-on addicted again).

If I do try being a mod ! I will do it armed with everything to prevent being an excessive drinker.
(1 year sober in 4 weeks).

Keep up the good work though.

Heavenly

[Shikakai]

Not so cured . . . fell last night.

Great thread... lots of positive advice and encouragement. Keep your head up...

[sailor girl]

Not so cured . . . fell last night.

This is the only place I feel like I belong. THANK YOU for your continued support. Whether you know it or not, I love the support that I get at this site.

[lih232]

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tea;297239 wrote: :l Nothing to add that you haven't said yourself, thanks for reminding me that I cannot have ONE drink, keep telling myself that a drink = drunk, no inbetweens for me either. Day one for me again and yes I am feeling all the shame, guilt, disgust and repulse at myself....:upset::upset: No one to blame but ME.

Lxx

:new:Hi I'm new here and very hesitant to post - I like the way you are all very supportive. Thanks for all the post that you have all done - I know I will get support from reading them.

[wonderworld]

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Hi Tired -

First I want to thank you for your honesty and candor. I totally 'got it' and identified with everything you wrote. That was powerful.

And I also want to say that - the last time I drank it was SO crystal clear afterward why I didn't want to anymore. It's hard to give up that nice chunk of AF days , but.......... now I know. For sure. It was all there in black and white. And for ME, the sobriety has been less of a struggle this time as a result.

Stay close! :l

Love WW xx

[Shikakai]

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wonderworld;297512 wrote: Hi Tired -

First I want to thank you for your honesty and candor. I totally 'got it' and identified with everything you wrote. That was powerful.

And I also want to say that - the last time I drank it was SO crystal clear afterward why I didn't want to anymore. It's hard to give up that nice chunk of AF days , but.......... now I know. For sure. It was all there in black and white. And for ME, the sobriety has been less of a struggle this time as a result.

Stay close! :l

Love WW xx

Um hmmm...

I think that is very important to recognize too, Wonder...

The harder we fall, the less inclined we will be to fall again...

It seems the falls get that much harder... just pray that the day we fall and never get back up never comes.

[KateH1]

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I don't know if we fall harder each time. But, if one is committed to being AF, a slip or a fall hits us harder and we become more determind to stay AF. The thing is, the more time we live as non-drinkers, the more we love being non-drinkers! Falling in with AL makes us clearly see, how much we have gained through sobriety, the regret comes from temporarily loosing what we hold dear.

It is so much better to think and plan and work for an AF life. Planing or praying that a "Fall" does not come, will surely bring about the event!

[JackieO]

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TOH--
Thanks for being so honest about your "slip". I've been thinking a lot about your situation. I, too, have been struggling to figure out if I can be a modder, or do I have to become an abstainer. I'm finding that, in my case, that decision is a process too. I can do very well stringing together AF days, and then I hit a patch of triggers (as is the case lately--a death, a vacation, a family member's serious legal problem, an intense business trip) and things escalate and I step back and go: "hmmm, that was just a set of triggers and I fell right into my old ways."
The way I see it, developing a drinking problem was a process--I guess figuring out how to change one for me is a process, too. Did you think about what your "triggers" were when you gave in to the rum? I think it is important to recognize and think about what sets off these old behaviors and learn to recognize them.
In any case, I echo everyone else--don't bash your self around the head. You've done incredibly, remarkably well. Glad to hear you're not going to reset the clock to zero. My thoughts are with you!

[Shikakai]

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Yea, Jackie, she should just pick up at day 83 and keep it moving. Definitely no reason to discount all the hard work and progress she put into achieving 82 days of sobriety.

Triggers, triggers, triggers... we need to make a list. I can get a phone call and it's a trigger. Maybe I'll shut off the service :H

I hope you all have a wonderful day!

[Ripple]

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on-line poker.

i can't fall, there are monitors in my house, plus i have to wear one of these; Alcoholism, - Articles i am safe! :H

[Shikakai]

Not so cured . . . fell last night.

Ripple;297837 wrote: i can't fall, there are monitors in my house, plus i have to wear one of these; Alcoholism, - Articles i am safe! :H

Wow... looking at that site only confirms what I've been saying for months now: ALCOHOLISM IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM IN AMERICA!

I wonder if it will ever be addressed.

Same thing goes for drug abuse... legal and illicit.

Thanks for posting, Rip.

[Ripple]

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yes dear, i may be nuts, but rippy takes every pre-caution to remain AL. i am sorry to those who have fallen, they can stay with me and play cards, with security..:h