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[barebones]

yesterday evening.

i met up with some AA friends and as normal go for dinner before a meeting on a fri night. this time we went to a place ive never been before. so i was ok at first, then when we went in i was overwhelmed with people and the bar. i havent been in a situation like that for long while even when i was drinking as because mainly i was a recluse drinker, and suffer from anxiety. so for some mins i was looking at people and there drinks and was having fleeting thoughts. after some mins i centered myself and tired to go with the flow. they orderd there food and we went to sit somewhere where it was more quiet which that was good. i only had one other thought was when i had to go to bar for another drink and thought it wouldnt be to hard to slip a vodka in wiht my coke, but i managed to go to bar and just get a coke. so i was fine after that.

i didnt tell my friends in what i was experiencing but did share at my AA meeting. which at break they was shocked that i didnt tell them. maybe i will tell them to warn me next time we go to a bz bar and place. somone said here in a post and i share what she thinks, im protecting my soberiety with much dedication and want as possible. in the past i failed alot in my life and this time im not going to fail. im not getting any younger and im missed alot out in life due to many things and my mental illnesses.

anyway its day 29 AF for me and im learning to be proud about it.

:h u all, take care my sweet peas lol

[hulagirl]

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Good for you Barebones! You have shown determination and strength. I think we all have those thoughts for quite a while about how to "sneak" a drink. And then we make a choice. And we keep doing that over and over and it gets easier and easier. Next time you pick the cafe (some place quiet and not crowded).

[kaddy]

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:goodjob:

well done

[AMELIA]

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Barebones,
that is excellent, that even though you were around strong triggers you didn't cave in.
29 days!! - absolutely awesome, you have much to be proud of.
x

[Not Happy Hour-Happy Life]

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Awesome accomplishment, Bare Bones!

Will tomorrow be day # 30, or will it be "29 again"..... ??......

29 Forever, just like my momma. :H

Have a happy weekend.:heart:

[KateH1]

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Barebones, Well Done! Nearly 30 days....just a few hours away is a huge accomplishment! I know for me, it was around the 30 day mark that the impact of truly living a sober life began to hit me.....but, if you talk about your thoughts and yes, your feelings during this growth period, it helps you move to the next level of your sobriety. At 80 something days,living sober, I can honestly say.......life is better, so much better on so many levels!

Keep it going......Stay Strong!
xx Kate

[Cinders]

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Barebones,

Simply Awesome.

Love,
Cindi

[memarcie]

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great job Barebones!

[4theboyz]

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Way to be strong BB!

[Noelle]

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Great job barebones! And 29 days is nothing to sneeze at! WTG!

[hippie37]

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What I cannot get over is the fact that members of AA would want to dine in a place like that in the first place. I'm not taking anything away from your achievements barebones I think you did extremely well under the circumstances. Congratulations on 29 days sober ODAAT.

I used to think it would be good for me to test myself from time to time by going out and drinking non-alcoholic drinks in a pub but I soon came to realise this served no purpose for me whatsoever. I went to pubs to drink it was that simple. So pubs hold no attraction whatsoever anymore to me even as far as drinking non-alcoholic beverages.

Love and Happiness
Hippie
xx

[Shikakai]

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You're a champ! That's one of the biggest tests out there and you PASSED! A+ for you, Bare...

Congrats on 30 days of sober-hood...!

[barebones]

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aww thanks you everyone for your replies ((((Hugs))))

im glad i was strong and im glad that i can come here and talk about it.

somthing funny happend today when i was at my daughters ponly club, i went upstairs which has a kitchen and that for us to sit and be warm. so i was hunting for tea bags, and didnt i come across a cupboard with VODKA, BEER THE LOT! lol god drink is following me around lol so i just closed the door and went back to huntin for my tea bags lol.

hippie u are right that most AA people wouldnt go to wet places as they call it and people have been advice of this. the place had restraunt aswell, it just happend that it was bz pub joined on it aswell. the other place we go to is another restraunt again has a pub but that is normaly quiet. however im not blind to the fact that if it becomes a problem for me is that i wont go, as im not going to ruinion my sobriety and yes people who keep going to these places could be doing more harm than good, unless u have a long time sober behind u. which i have to say, one lady has 1 year behind her and she is comfortable in these types of places. the other two have took taht first drink in the near past. but me i cant advise them in what they are doing is wrong, it up to them in what they feel comfortable with. also it is just once a week, and its a girly thing and ofcuase u have the support of that ur in sober company.

anyway enough of my rant lol thanks for ur understanding hippie.

[Shikakai]

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Yes, we really have to watch where we go, Bares... bars/clubs are off limits for me (court-ordered).

You passed two tests in two days, actually. The test at the bar/restaurant and the test at the pony club. You should be proud of yourself.

[Ripple]

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not for me.

hubby has taken me early on like you BB...and its very difficult...i don't go near bars very much. i don't need to be taunted like that, its hard enough staying off bottle never mind having it close to sniff. out: