for the "sign" to continue on.
Although I am EXTREMELY appreciative of the $100 gift certificate (I have been really wanting to purchase the hypno CDs but do not have the funds), I am even MORE grateful for the change it has developed within me......
Because of an emotional trigger that I am aware of but have not faced head on, I drank on Sunday. Yesterday (Monday), I decided to stay away from the boards. I guess I was feeling a bit unworthy and disappointed. So I did not come on in the morning, after work, and before bed like I normally do.
But then I was lying in bed and realized that it was the end of the month, and I HAD to fill in the drink tracker. I dragged my sorry behind out of bed and logged on. The first thing that happened is that I had a PM from RJ. What could this be? Did I log on Sunday and do something really stupid? Nope, I won a $100 gift certificate to the store.
I cannot even express how much this has changed my attitude. I realize that I may not be where I WANT to be with my drinking, but I sure am where I NEED to be. Not another day will go by with the thought that I will avoid these boards. I don't care if I slip, my hormones are in a rage, or if I am plain ol' sick and tired; I will be here every day.
And I hope that one day I get the opportunity to "Pay It Forward." I truly believe that I was given a wonderful gift, and I will never take that for granted.
I cherish you RJ and all of the wonderful people on these boards. :l
Although I am EXTREMELY appreciative of the $100 gift certificate (I have been really wanting to purchase the hypno CDs but do not have the funds), I am even MORE grateful for the change it has developed within me......
Because of an emotional trigger that I am aware of but have not faced head on, I drank on Sunday. Yesterday (Monday), I decided to stay away from the boards. I guess I was feeling a bit unworthy and disappointed. So I did not come on in the morning, after work, and before bed like I normally do.
But then I was lying in bed and realized that it was the end of the month, and I HAD to fill in the drink tracker. I dragged my sorry behind out of bed and logged on. The first thing that happened is that I had a PM from RJ. What could this be? Did I log on Sunday and do something really stupid? Nope, I won a $100 gift certificate to the store.
I cannot even express how much this has changed my attitude. I realize that I may not be where I WANT to be with my drinking, but I sure am where I NEED to be. Not another day will go by with the thought that I will avoid these boards. I don't care if I slip, my hormones are in a rage, or if I am plain ol' sick and tired; I will be here every day.
And I hope that one day I get the opportunity to "Pay It Forward." I truly believe that I was given a wonderful gift, and I will never take that for granted.
I cherish you RJ and all of the wonderful people on these boards. :l
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