WHOA ... what the hell happned?

[Kayla]

For me, posting equates to confession, acknowledgement, accountability ...

I have suddenly bought a bottle of bourbon today (husb is away) for the first time in four or five years. Been battling with wine, but have forsworn the strong stuff. Today, the notion hit me, and I was off, automated to the bottle shop ...

Dealing with shame and bemusement. Wondering what the hell is goin on with me? Things are stressful here I know - money worries, moving house (after 11 yrs), estrangement for 2 years now from step-daughter and grandchildren (v/sad about this), hub busy with a phD, two young kids, an op to have a tumour and L ovary removed ...

Just wanted to share and say it all out loud to you guys ...

Kayla

[lillyatter]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

Hi Kayla

Well,Sweetie....How are you feeling about it?Is there a particular reason you went for th hard stuff if you usually don't?I know that there are nights when I haVE drank my hubby's whiskey (normally vodka is my drink) and it has ben bcause i have been needing somthing stronger,feeling especially ANGRY/VENGEFUL towards my husband (don't ask,it is sick,I know :H)actually,I should erase that laugh smiley, as it isn't funny,FOR SURE,but i have decided,like you said,these forums SHOULD be used truthfully,so I don't erase my 1st thoughts any more....POINT BEING...WHY TONITE THE HARD BOOZE,BABE?Please feel free to think aloud ,I will be up for about another hour,hour and a half if you just want someone to listen )...I will HEAR you and repond until then,sweetheart,and if you go to sleep before then,then I WILL check on you in this thread,as I am sure LOTS of others will ,in the morning,ok?:huggy:

[tweezy]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

Whoa Kayla

You've got heaps of things worrying you so take it easy on the bourbon. You sound like a nice,intelligent person, so be kind to yourself. EASY FOR ME TO SAY,hang in there. BYE :hitme:

[Kayla]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

Thanks Rebecca
Still wondering JUST WHY i went for the hard stuff after all this time. I had a bottle red under my desk, but it just was't getting me there, you know? Trip switched into Bourbon. Very surprised. I drank 1/4 of the bottle and no effect ... Bummer.

Thanks for the support. Great to know someone's there at the other end? How about going to the chat room?
Kayla

[kaddy]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

hi kayla
am also have the same op to have a tumour and L ovary removed ... last year they done a tumour but its come back,,,, so hope you get throw this sending all my best
jackie

[lillyatter]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

Kayla;307168 wrote: Thanks Rebecca
Still wondering JUST WHY i went for the hard stuff after all this time. I had a bottle red under my desk, but it just was't getting me there, you know? Trip switched into Bourbon. Very surprised. I drank 1/4 of the bottle and no effect ... Bummer.

Thanks for the support. Great to know someone's there at the other end? How about going to the chat room?
Kayla

Hi sweetie,you still there>

[Kayla]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

Yep, still around, been back and fwd to the chat room

[lillyatter]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

How are you today?

:h..in and out w/ kiddos today/looking out for you though,sweetie...:huggy:....

[lillyatter]

WHOA ... what the hell happned?

How are you today?

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