Some of you know the stress that I have experienced the last 7 months (separation). Well all of that is starting to peak.
I have found who my true friends are over this time. Now I can count them on one hand. This has been exhilerating and scary. Not really thinking about AL anymore (he never was my friend anyways), really enjoying life in a way that I didn't before. Stifling existance is over.
Anyways, one of my new friends, a woman, has been very supportive the last 2 months. We have a tremendous amount in common, much more than I had with my ex. She cares about me both physically and mentally.
Long story, short: I was having a few beers at a friend's house (male), hitting some golf balls and bsing. Woman phones unexpectedly. Immediately knows that I had been drinking; which I admitted (I was moderating nicely and in control). The conversation was fine, but afterwards I felt like poo. I left the party, went home and worked in the gardens.
I realized last night that I can be with great people and make friendships without AL. DUHHH. I never want to hurt anyone again. This woman is very special to me; and we have a lot of things to work out. We have had a glass of wine together over dinner. I don't even know if I finished mine.....that is her affect on me.
I want to continue on this correct path. I actually like myself today.
Thanks for listening....
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