recently
my threapist siad its up to you if you drink , thats all fair in love and war etc but she hasnt been there ,im definatly aware of my postives etc as she continually points out
basically im a binge or spree drinker i can go a longtime without drinking then whoom im back on it again thats why i cant get detox because im psycholoigally addicted not physically dependent
even tho wheni do drink i twitch around
i think one reaches the point when its up to oneself , nothing outside oneself can help its only self awareness and the recognition of ones own soul/being
but like a lot of people who do drink there are a lot of emotions etc deeply inherent in us which cant come out
thats why thankfully im going into group psychoptherapy after a 13 months waiting list
like my old keyworker once siad
jay its all very well to take anti alcohol drugs but your addictions lies in your own psychic make up
and i guess he is right
i cant attend day detox etc asi care for my mother etc
also my travel pass was taken away from me due to the lack of council funding but thats life
spiritually i have my own values , and they help thats why i cant stand the pseudo bullshit of aa
even tho i know itworks for some people and good luck to them
every one has to find thier own way
and once discovered work on it even though it may not be acceptable to the majority of herd values
im determined to finally leave booze behind
i know i can do it im worth a lot more than soakiing in myown tears
i have my ways ..
i wish everyone luck on thier own journey
thank you
jay
my threapist siad its up to you if you drink , thats all fair in love and war etc but she hasnt been there ,im definatly aware of my postives etc as she continually points out
basically im a binge or spree drinker i can go a longtime without drinking then whoom im back on it again thats why i cant get detox because im psycholoigally addicted not physically dependent
even tho wheni do drink i twitch around
i think one reaches the point when its up to oneself , nothing outside oneself can help its only self awareness and the recognition of ones own soul/being
but like a lot of people who do drink there are a lot of emotions etc deeply inherent in us which cant come out
thats why thankfully im going into group psychoptherapy after a 13 months waiting list
like my old keyworker once siad
jay its all very well to take anti alcohol drugs but your addictions lies in your own psychic make up
and i guess he is right
i cant attend day detox etc asi care for my mother etc
also my travel pass was taken away from me due to the lack of council funding but thats life
spiritually i have my own values , and they help thats why i cant stand the pseudo bullshit of aa
even tho i know itworks for some people and good luck to them
every one has to find thier own way
and once discovered work on it even though it may not be acceptable to the majority of herd values
im determined to finally leave booze behind
i know i can do it im worth a lot more than soakiing in myown tears
i have my ways ..
i wish everyone luck on thier own journey
thank you
jay
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