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[greeneyes]

Dang, I hate it when I write a post and then when I hit submit it's gone.

Short version. Maybe that's best LOL. Rehab for 30 days = $13k pp minimum. Dorie trip down colorado river for 21 days = $6k pp. Outdoors, camping, hiking... love that kind of stuff. (been there, done that - best ever!) Humm.... And I'm kind of feeling blah about therapy. I want to go and do and live rather than sit on a couch and talk about it. My heart wants to sing. Out loud. In the big blue yonder. (Bessie, let me know if you need an exp for that :H)

But here's the deal. Can we afford it? Can we afford not to?

[fairyfeet]

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help

Hi greeneyes can you tell me how to find my thread I am losing it fast here and need to talk to someone thanks

[greeneyes]

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Do you know how to PM? I sent you one. Look in blue box that says Welcome, fairy feet. and lcick on private messages. when you see mine, click on respond. or go to chat and I'll look for you.

[dexterhead]

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Greenie, I say take to the river. Hubbie too?
If you think it will be the ticket, you can't afford not to, I say ...

[Ripple]

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please help.

my foot is killing me. i ripped off another toe nail! must stop doing that. now i only have the big toe nail and the second toe nail...all the other ones are GONE..:upset:

[YoungAtHeart]

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I guess before I could give my opinion, I'd have to know where you are at with your drinking these days, Greenie.

[greeneyes]

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Just get one of those toe thingies you have and cover it up and move on. And don't even think of saying anything because I saw your foot. :H

[Guest]

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I just spent ?6k on 3 weeks rehab (that's not far short of $13k in your money) in the UK. Best thing I ever did.

Yes I was worried about the money and being self-employed also didn't have any income for best part of 1 month so you can add further costs to that one! On the upside I didn't spend anything on drink, got fed and watered also didn't go shopping either (not til I got out I didn't!).

I didn't like spending the money - haven't had a proper, full holiday for a few years and only started earning decent money recently.

The way I justified it was this - if I carried on drinking I would get to a point where I couldn't work and eventually would get low on funds. During wait for free NHS treatment (if they let me - remember they told me I wasn't alcoholic) I would surely deplete all funds and be in a bad state physically. If I spent the money on rehab I would be back at work permanently, earning steadily - no sick days off to threaten my business or let customers down. I would earn that money back slowly and surely especially since I would be happier and able to perform to a higher level.

Look upon it as an investment. You could also spend the holiday hungover, not able to get full value.

You should have a full life infront of you in which to holiday again.

Think about it.

[Bessie]

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Greeny - I understand more of your strange and strangled language than you think... hahaha! (Ok I was really foxed by the road apples thing.....!)

Gotta say I agree with UK Blonde. If you think you NEED the therapy then it is an investment in the rest of your life. You will learn lessons from it that you can keep with you. A holiday will be fab but will be over with not a lot left to show. And you can have one of those after rehab.
I have been in therapy for something else and can't praise it highly enough...if you get the right person. Just helps you make some changes and move on. Then you sing your little heart out in any bit of wild blue yonder you find. Knowing you've beaten Al. You'll be singing even louder then.

Ripple. I'm sorry about your toenails. Keep your socks on next time!

bessie xx

[Croft]

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I would go down the river!

[Lorelei]

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YoungAtHeart;312234 wrote: I guess before I could give my opinion, I'd have to know where you are at with your drinking these days, Greenie.

I agree with Young here. If you feel like you have any handle on the situation the trip down the river will do you wonders, but if you are struggling hard most days then off to rehab you should go. You are the only person that knows what's best for you, even if you think you don't. We can offer support and opinions but we don't really know all the inside stuff that you know. Close your eyes, quiet your mind and ask yourself what you should do, then trust yourself.

Lots of love,

-lorelei

[Noelle]

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Greens, you know what you *should* do, right? It's just MHO, but the thing we don't want to do is often the thing we need to do.

(((Greens))) :h

[memarcie]

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While going down the river will be a nice break from drinking, rehab will give you the tools to help get yourself sober.

[Bambi]

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Greenie,

I am going to step in just because I have been thinking along the rehab lines myself. Please this is only something to think about.....


The two week river trip would get you sober but when you come back will you have the tools you need to stay sober?

For me I can get sober...it is the stay sober for me that is a kicker.


Wishing you and your hubby the very best of luck!
Hugs, Bambi

[Lorelei]

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Fair question secondchance.

My struggle with alcohol has always been looming in the background. Many people in my family have been alcoholics and I saw many a funeral due to preventable diseases. After I graduated from college in 2003 I had lots of free time on my hands and started hanging out in bars more. After all I had just spent 11 years going to school part time earning my degree in Chemistry and I needed to cut loose a bit. Then my mom was diagnosed with cancer and instead of having a more relaxed life it got more stressful. Meanwhile I changed jobs to the worst job ever, which laid me off three weeks before my mom died in Sept of 2005. I then found a new job doing things that I had never done before. By this time I was drinking daily and pulled together a string of bad relationships so bad that I almost went nuts. In March 2006 I started dating this wonderful man whom I had met several times in passing over the past few years. For a time I got my drinking under control. The day he was supposed to meet my father, we (my brother and I) found dad dead. Dad passed away in May of 2006 of a massive heart attack. I basically lost it after that and went back to my daily habit until my bf and I had the "you drink too much" talk. I came here to MWO in May of 2007 looking for a way to get out of the alcohol trap. I'm stubborn and so it takes me awhile, bf broke up with me in Oct 2007 to give me space to sort stuff out.

I have been attempting to moderate for about a year, while I am can generally string a good week of AF days together I never know if I am going to be able to moderate in any given drinking session or not. I have therefore recently made the decision to stop all together. I am in therapy and I take the supplements but am not on any of the medications at the moment.

Lemme know if there is anything else your curious about.

-lorelei