to me myself and i

[tlrgs]

i thought it was going to be defferent now that i am sober.i feel so alone and yet there is alot of love here. am trying to understand this feeling and i dont know how to deal with it . i try to think of something else but it is always there.god i have a family but they dont know me. i have try to reach out . but the door stays close.and i know i have to live on. this cant be a wall that i cant overcome. i would love to say that its just me catching a cold . but i have felt like this for awhile now . and no it doesnt mean i want to drink . maybe just alittle depress i dont know . or the fact is that i cant sleep again , work or is it because i havent been able to make love to the women i love .because am affraid of hurting her in anyway more then she is hurting already. so where am i .where do i go what do i do right now i want to work out in my shop but i cant .woke up again with my eyes buff up and one is almost close as i am typing. aint this a bitch . well am done venting for now . and remember only you can pervent al from taking advantage of you.
just by saying no
peace, love and god bless

[songbird]

to me myself and i

You are not alone...struggling myself. Thank you for putting in words how I feel right now and how Al has ruined my life. Keep reaching out (I will take my own advice) and just remember...it's always the darkest before the dawn..(I should also listen to myself)

Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone...:l

P.S...I live in Fla too and you think all this sunshine would keep us happy?

[keeta]

to me myself and i

Tlrgs,
I am sorry you are feeling so low right now.
Keep pushing forward the best you can, and please know you are NOT alone.
We are all here, and we care. Stay close

love and hugs,
K

[tlrgs]

to me myself and i

yeah songbird..you would think that would be the case but this place has it ups and downs. and i know it just me feeling bad for myself i want more but dont know what. the look on my kids face maybe my gf feeling a 110 % better . me feeling better . i built a shop but cant take the chance to work in there i might harm myself because of blurry vision. wow this really does suck .wow here i am trying to better myself not driking eating right being a better person in all. and now hating it because. what the hell am i doing feeling sorry for myself. this time i should take it and learn from it

[time2change]

to me myself and i

We woun't have any of this feeling sorry for yourself. Think of all you have accomplished and how far you have come. Think of how much you mean to all of the people here and how much you inspire them. There are many out there that you don't even know that read a post by you and decide that maybe they can do this too. There are many out there that have posted and received a reply from you that may have made a hugh difference to them. Pick yourseld up and look at all the positives. Things are improving and they will continue to improve. WE ARE PROUD OF YOU!

[wimpey]

to me myself and i

You know what my friend....... sometimes when you are climbing up the hill, you need to stop looking up, at how far you have still left to go........ but turn around and see how far you have come.......... your a good guy!........

W

[flyinhigh]

to me myself and i

nicely put wimpey....look behind and try to clearly see all those accomplishments you have made...btw, what is wrong with your eye?
you said that you wish you could go into your shop and work on something....you wish you could make love to your woman, you wish.....how about this as an idea...it's a stretch, stop wishing, these things will come to you in due time.
maybe this is the time to do something you have never done before...and maybe it is something you don't need vision really to do. do you play a musical instrument....do you do any form of art....do you like to exercise?
i am one who can enjoy a good wallow in the well, and think it is good for the soul, but then i have to pick myself up again, not everyday can be a cloudy day...how do you want to see your day?

[flyinhigh]

to me myself and i

oh btw...

XO

flyin

[Ripple]

to me myself and i

oh dear.

maybe some time off the puter, its warm in Florida, too nice to be inside. I'm coming to Florida for a few days around the 17th.? How bout a few kittens to brighten up your day? whatever it is, change is needed. do something different. i won't be here much soon, so you can't pick on me. hope all goes well for ya. fling out the old and bring in the new? :h

[Accountable for Me]

to me myself and i

Hmmm..... Ripple may have a point. Sometimes too much time on the computer can bring a 'bout of loneliness. I am finding myself, I am spending WAY too much time on mine. I am starting to feel iscolated.... and a tad lonely. Time to do something else for a while, me thinks.

You may also be feeling a 'sober lul'. Kind of like a 'what now?' sort of thing. It happens to everyone in sobriety.

Gotta change it up! Try something new!

You have come a long way. Try looking at your accomplishments and try not to dwell on the negatives.

If you are indeed in a 'depression' that doesn't pass (I think they say more than two weeks), then please see your physician.

JUST DON'T DRINK!

[betty boop]

to me myself and i

TL ........ be strong love ........ Wimpey is bang on ........ look behind and see how far you have come ........ you are amazing ..............

Take care of yourself and godbless ........ BB xx

[tlrgs]

to me myself and i

yes i have look behind me. left and right of me and all i see is one shadow and its me. i do like what i see .its just so hard sometimes to see the bigger picture and yes i have come so far to turn back to the old me .but when i ask myself a question. who really love me for me . its hard to get a answer when no is there to talk to.. when they dont want anything to do with me .. this is the way i feel ..
a man with a broken heart..peace , love and god bless

PS this is my way to handle it ..i wrte it down and read it later to remind me i do not want to want

[Ripple]

to me myself and i

oh dear.

no more tears now..stop it. i won't be in chat tonite, maybe tomorrow nite. we can do some burning or get into an argue-ment with someone. now thats FUN! you can FLUSH me! :H then burn some more or something? gotta check the kittys and wash the delivery room rags. be good T..nothing is wrong with you, your having a flash-back. :hateputer:

[Thankful]

to me myself and i

god i have a family but they dont know me. i have try to reach out . but the door stays close.

Tl ~ When was the last time you talked to family members? Really reached out? Do they live near you? You've posted about this before and I can see how much this separation has been hurting you.

It's unfortunate, but when we do one thing wrong we sometimes have to do hundred things right to make amends. It's not fair, but that's life. Maybe you should try to contact your family again. Are they aware how fantastic you are doing with your sobriety?

How are your boys? Do you get to see them more often?

Your in my thoughts and prayers, hun. Hang in there.

Love, Me
:l

[Beaches]

to me myself and i

I am glad you are sharing how you are feeling because I am sure there are so many out there that feel or have felt the exact same way as you do know.

Just don't replay all the wrongs in your head and think forward. Think of today and how it will be alright.